The Drummer

Chapter 8

" I'm not in the mood trav, sorry." you say, still holding the rose.

"er sorry, just trying to lighten the mood.. Im sorry. Look I just like to joke I didn't wanna upset you or anything. Why so glum?" he asks, straightening up and gesturing into his apartment.

As you go inside, still shocked from earlier news, you decide to tell him. It would stop him being so smug, and he deserves to know... Danny's gone. For how long you won't know.

"look travis..." you say as he sits down, close to you.

"Danny's gone. He left this morning. He told me yesterday, he dosent know when he will be back. I'm so sorry." you say holding his hand, as Danny did when he told you. Travis turns bright red, and the look of shock on his face makes you feel guilty.

"I-I-I don't know what to say! It's my fault isnt it? I've ruined everything. All my fault..." his words trail off as he covers his face with his hands, in perhaps an attempt to cover up tears. Feeling bad you start to stroke his back saying;

"it's not all your fault. He's been thinking about it for a while, he just needs room to breathe!" you say, in some tone of comfort, he looks up at you.

Yet again you get a glance of his beautiful, light blue diamond like eyes and his sliver lip ring, that you can remeber when he kissed you, it was cold and it tickled.

You look at each other for a second, yet it felt like a long time. His beautiful blue eyes were bloodshot and he look worried, he started to lean in to you. You start to panic, will he kiss you again? Would he dare? Maybe it's what you need... To get over Danny? Could you. Could you get over Danny?

As he leans in more you loose your common sense and you think 'whatever happens happens'

He leans in more and then...

He hugs you. He squeezes you tight and threatens never to let go. He sobs. Into your shoulder, he's crying. You rest your head on his back and you realise he smells like cheap drugstore aftershave but you like it, it kinda comforts you.

As he lets go and sits up he sniffs slightly and rubs his face with his hands, attempting to remove the looks of crying.

"your gonna miss him huh?" you ask him, braking the silence in the room.

"yeah I will, I've known him all my life. It will be the first time he's not just living down the street anymore." he attempts a smile and an awkward laugh.

You smile back at him and he winks. The 'old' travis is coming back wich was good :)

*2 hours later*

"hahahaha! Tell me more about Danny when you guys were younger!" you laugh, playfully nudging his arm.

Travis has been telling you about Danny for a while now, you feel closer to Danny and closer to him.

"look" he begins sitting up from his slouch and taking your hand.

"I'm sorry for kissing you that night, I c..."

"couldn't help yourself?" you interrupt his sentence and laugh.

"yes haha I'm so sorry.." he slows his words and leans in more.

You lean in too.

"we shouldn't." you say, still leaning in however.

"I know but why are you leaning in as I am?" he asks smiling though. Your foreheads meet.

"I'm not, anymore haha" you laugh back.

Fully aware you shouldn't because Danny only left this morning. But he's left. He left you. Maybe travis actually loves you and maybe deep down you love travis too. Danny's gone and you don't know when he will be back, IF he ever comes back? You and travis have a right to be happy? ... Don't you...?

Your eyes meet and...

You kiss.