Letters Written, Left Unnoticed

4/27/2021

It's funny that I work on this knowing that you will probably never look at it again. I read the letter I wrote to you today again and I cringed. I kinda suck at writing to be honest. Really random, but I miss you and talking to you. Something else that seems kinda weird and maybe stupid is I think about my mental health a lot and I know it's in a large downspiral right now, but currently at a plateu. Though I look at different mental disorders a lot and I have been looking at what I likely have and that's depression and anxiety, but bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder also fit me really well. I mean not that I can truly say that as I'm not a professional, but that's just kinda what I've seen and noticed in myself and I'm pretty good when it comes to knowing myself. I have a good mindset of where my body is, how much I weigh and where the weight is stored, Knowing what makes me feel what and just a bunch of random things "trigger" me to feel that way. A lot of times I get overwhelmed by noise which is why music is nice because it's noise I control. I also get overwhelmed by touch but I like it too. It's just a lot of little things that all add up.