Complicated love

Part 8

"I met her actually. Or at least I like to think so. I like a girl but I have no idea how she feels about me. Sadly, I start to think that she might even hate me. I really hope that she is my person, that right girl because I have an enormous crush on her" he chuckled nervously scratching the back of his neck.

"Have you felt like this for a long time?" I asked him, now that he started talking I don't want to shut him down, noone should be shut down when they are talking about their feelings. I'm not gonna lie, I kind of feel sad about him liking another girl.

"Yeah...been a few years now. Usually you just start to see more and more flaws in another person or that feeling just goes away after some time, but with her it's different. Everyday she just interests me more and more..." he looked sad, sad that he wants a girl and feels afraid to do things. I caught myself thinking that I wish it would be me.

"I don't know whether I should be saying, but trust me. I've known you since we were little. You wanted to be friends with Sam, but you never left me out to play alone, you were always polite and acted like I was your own sister. I've seen how you behave with girls and I can tell you that these days not many guys can do it like you do. C'mon you act so nice around Chloe no matter how much she can get on your nerves. Go for it. Go and get that girl you like so much" I smiled at him as he was just staring "I know that any girl would want you and be lucky to have you, Harry" I smiled but I was trying to hold back my tears.

"Thanks, Gigi" he hugged me "I knew you were always the smart one" he chuckled but I felt my shirt getting damp from his tears "I really needed that. I really needed to talk to someone and guys are just guys you can't get too sappy with them."

"Your secret is safe with me" I hugged him back and I felt like I won't be able to fight those tears back anymore. "You know we should go to sleep, you need to clear your head too, Harry" I said kissing his cheek. "Goodnight".

"Goodnight love" he gave me a smile and stood up with me to go to his tent. I opened my tent to go in and saw two pairs of feet. Weird. I opened curtains more to see Sam and Chloe sleeping together. Sam had Chloe pulled so close to him that it was so sweet to look at.

"Um...Harry?" I called out his name silently.

"Yeah?"

"There is a problem. I kind of need a place to sleep" I said as I saw my place was taken by Sam..

"What?" he said and pulled open his tent curtains and saw it empty. "I guess it means you're sleeping with me tonight" he smiled at me motioning for me to go in.

We laid down, I took Sam's sleeping bag and slid in. My mind still kept wondering about the fact that Harry has a girl that he likes as crazy. I can't even understand my own feelings right now when thinking about it. Firstly, I'm happy for him, because Harry being the person that he is totally deserves someone. Anyone would be lucky to be with him. Secondly, I feel weird, kind of jealous and sad that he likes someone else and not me. I can't say that I've always acknowledged the fact that I might like this boy, but I started to think so a few weeks ago, when we didn't talk to each other and how I was dying inside because of it. I wanted to lay down closer to him, but I stopped myself from doing so.

"Goodnight Gigi" Harry whispered and suddenly I felt a soft kiss being planted on my cheek. My cheeks got warm and I was glad he wasn't able to see how red they were.

"Goodnight" I replied silently. I closed my eyes and waited for the heat from my cheeks to go away. I wanted to throw myself at him and kiss those lips so bad, but I couldn't do that. Suddenly I felt tiredness and sleep take over me.

I shivered from the cold. I felt like freezing but it was so difficult to peel my eyes open. Finally, I somehow managed to do so, and saw that I wasn't in my bed. Suddenly, it hit me. I was in a tent with Harry and as I turned around I saw him lying there. I knew that I shouldn't move closer to him, but it was so cold that I couldn't care anymore. Carefully, I moved closer and wrapped my arm around his waist and released my breath. Harry was lying with his back to me. I closed my eyes again hoping to be able to fall asleep. Suddenly, I felt him start to move, he was turning around and I kind of felt embarrassed, muttered "sorry" and started to turn around when he quickly grabbed me by my waist trying to look at my face in a still pretty dark tent. It was light enough to make out silhouettes.

"Hey" he whispered "don't be, it's okay" he said kissing my forehead, making it feel like my face was burning again. "Are you cold?" he said, touching my nose with his fingers.

"Yes" I whispered silently, feeling more and more embarrassed every minute.

"Turn over" he said silently, and I did as he told. Then he spooned me wrapping his arms around me and nuzzling his nose into the crook of my neck.

"This way it'll be more warm, than just you hugging me" he kissed my shoulder. I liked it but was kind of confused why he is acting like that. I didn't know what to think. Maybe he was talking in his sleep but anyways I was just trying to fall asleep but I still kept thinking back to how awkward it was when he turned around as I was hugging my brother's best friend.

"Stop thinking about it, love. I liked it." he whispered like knowing that my brain was still working around that fact.

I felt myself slowly getting warmer and finally fell asleep again.

Next morning I woke from the heat inside the tent. I remember Harry hugging me so I'll get warm, in the middle of the night, but now the tent was so warm inside because the sun was already up. I turned around to see that a tent was already empty. I know that last night meant nothing for Harry as he likes another girl and I am just his best friend's little sister, but it felt so natural and I actually really liked that sweet side of him.

Finally, I decided to get up and see maybe someone else was also awake.