The way it is

Hope has no grandor

Two years later.....

I awoke to a pain in my stomach as I hobbled to the bathroom and threw up. This had been happening for the past month and I had no clue as to why.I was cleaning up the mess when my mate walked in and I continued to clean." The Luna has found you are sick we must go to the PAC doctor.' He said pulling me by my neck chain.I followed like I was supposed to as he pulled me along to a room in the main house where a doctor waited." Lay down rose." He said and I complied as he rolled up my shirt and slathered gel on it. He looked at the screen and smiled." Congratulations you'd rose you are with pup." He said.He said it with joy but when he notices I wasn't smiling he quickly handed me abtowel to clean myself." You should be happy your able to have pups some people can't." He said. It wasn't a question so I remained silence.I think as your pup grows you'll learn this is a joyus thing." He said. He turned to my mate who was beaming with joy.He grabbed my chain as he pulled me to the alphas office with happiness. " alpha Luna it is good news he is with pup." He said. The alpha and Luna looked happy congratulating us." Are you not happy to have a pup?" She asked. "It does not matter how I feel mam." I said my eyes to the floor in respect.She looked ate in shock her hand forcing my face to look at her.She saw no change so she slapped me but I shows no emotion.Why because I no longer felt pain it was a worthless emotion. She turned to my mate with a glare." He should be happy joyous even,but hopefully time will change him make him happy. Make sure to keep up the love and affection birth can be painful almost deathly without doing so." She said and at this I smiled. I could die. I could be free. The alpha saw my smile but only shook his head. My mate growled and dragged me to our bedroom." Do you wish to die rather than take care of our pup?" He asked. I took a breath and spoke." If I was to want it you would not allow me to have it." I said so he tied me to the bed. " I will not allow you to die." He griwlled out entering me painfully as usual. Two healthy boys were born.He names them Skylar and Ryder. But my emotion did not change.I WAS discussed by what his torture had created and only did what I was told.I had six more pups over the next four years my emotions the same. The doctor ainced my pain as he stitches me up yet again." You must tell your mate to stops rose.males should not have this many pups the next one could kill you." He said as he walked from the room. I was so excited I could die. I dragged my heavy chain as I went to out home. Finding every condom I could and poking holes in them hoping he would not notice. My way out so forceeable I kept on the smile. I rember telling the eldest twins that the next pup should be named. Blue without the e it was my favorite color.I said as we played chase. They smiled.In that moment I knew I was going to die so I pretended to change.I played with my pups and did anything they asked.Over the next few months the PAC became suspicious.I had never been this happy since I came here 6 years ago and they smiled thinking I had finally excepted fate but they were wrong very wrong.