Where did you all Go?

3. Plots and Plans

Sorry, this was shorter than the others, filler chapter I guess?

1130 Words

CW: Immediate Angst, Self hurty hurty, Sad Tommy ;], I'll give you some time to prepare :D

Tommy's POV

I can't believe it, I just couldn't. Phil had called me Thomas and yelled at me, and it's not that he was pissed that scared me, it's the fact that he just yelled at me, was he really fed up with me? I influenced... Tubbo alone with me? All I've ever done was... fuck up? Oh god, I can't stomach this. I ran up to the bathroom and started throwing up. My stomach hurt and I started to cry. God, why couldn't I do anything right? How do I fix this...

I have an idea how to redeem yourself.

Oh, it's you.

Don't be so bitter, I'm only here to help you.

Well if that's so true, then help me now.

Glady. Stand up.

I stood up and did exactly as the voices told me.

Look into the cupboard. Find a razor. Find bandages. Get a long sleeved shirt. Good. Now head back into the bathroom. It's okay, it'll be better soon. Good. Now raise your sleeves, and use the razor. On your skin. Cut.

Wait, what? You want me to... cut myself? No, I can't do that.

Just one. See how it feels, it'll help you. Otherwise, you'll NEVER redeem yourself to Phil.

You're... you're right.

I raised the razor to my arm and started to cut. It hurt like hell so I stopped, tears pricked my eyes, but soon enough, the sinking feeling of pain in my chest went away. This... this does help...

See, what'd I tell you? Now, let me encourage you.

Okay....

Look at you, you're so fat. You almost got Tubbo in trouble. Phil doesn't love you anymore and so does Wilbur. It's because of how imperfect you are.

One for fatness, one for Tubbo, one for Phil, one for Wilbur. Two for being a nuisance to Phil, two more for displeasing Wilbur. Three because of how disgusting and imperfect I am. Two for being so dumb, stupid, ugly. This went on for a few minutes, soon I was covered in lots of cuts. Before I realized it, I had cut a lot. Shit, shit, shit, shit! What do I do...

You bandage yourself, first, you wash your arms, then dry it, then bandage yourself, make it look natural.

Thank you.

Ava POV

I finally started fully replacing Tommy for Phil and Wilbur, we were like a happy trio, but I just couldn't get Tubbo OR Techno. Big brother Techno wouldn't budge! I did, however, manage to get Phil and Wilbur to hate him, I know that they were close and dear to him. I did notice that Tommy goes to the restroom a lot so I decided to take a look, and there he was, all broken. Good.

We went to school per usual and I tried to get Tubbo but he still wouldn't budge. Then it hit me... what if Tommy was just out of the picture entirely? I just need to get him to end himself, then this family would finally be mine.

I cornered Tommy in the bathroom and we did our usual dirty talk, then I had a great idea. "All that cutting and you still aren't perfect enough, hm? You should do more. I mean, come on, you are just so... disgusting, fat, imperfect, no one would continue loving you." I said harshly. I smiled at this and the others took this as a new tactic to tear him apart, however, he didn't seem to budge, he never broke character in front of anyone. It was frustrating.

No One POV

The things that were going on now were affecting Tommy a lot more than he thought, the intrusive thoughts got louder, the eating disorder got worse, he pointed out every mistake on his body, without realizing it, Phil and Wilbur was making this considerably way worse. Tommy would lie away, replaying what arguments had sprung out that day and start to cry about how sorry he was. He was growing tired without realizing it, but he didn't want to worry Tubbo so he never shared anything with him.

Tubbo, however, did notice quite a few things. Tommy started wearing long sleeves more, he never pulled them up, no matter how hot it was, it really worried Tubbo, he noticed that sometimes Tommy didn't even eat. It was getting pretty concerning but he didn't know how to confront him.

Techno knew something wrong was up quickly. Tommy was limping way more, he wore long sleeves, never pulled them up. He was awake at night, only slept 1 -3 hours, caught him not even touching his food multiple times. There was something seriously wrong here, he was angry when Phil didn't notice or bother, He was especially enraged when even WILBUR didn't do anything. Wilbur knew the most about this, he was such a big brother to Tommy, but he kept hurting him without realizing it.

Arguments got more and more frequent with it just got worse and worse, Tommy was breaking at a fast pace, and he didn't even realize it, the only keeping Tommy grounded, however, was Tubbo. Tubbo was there for Tommy without realizing it, and he never went with Ava or gave her a chance.

Summer rolled by and Phil made an announcement. "Okay boys, we're gonna go camping," he said, and everyone cheered. "but Tommy, you might not be able to go." he added and the excitement went down. "Oh yeah Philza? Well then I'm not going either!" Tubbo said. "It's either Tommy is there or I'm not going down either." Techno chipped in. "Wait hold on, you can't just pass down a family camping trip! What is it without you guys? I mean, Tommy's in lots of trouble this year so I don't know why he gets to go." Ava put in. "Well I'm sticking with Tommy!" Tubbo said firmly. "It's not family without our gremlin here." Techno said.

"Thanks guys, but it's fine! You guys can go, really, it's fine!" Tommy says quickly. "No big man, it's us against the world, remember?" Tubbo smiled. Tommy smiled back, "Oh you're so fucking clingy Tubbo. Guess it can't be helped, he's not coming without me." Tommy smiled. "Nahhh, these idiots are boring without you Tom." Techno smiled. Tommy laughed at this. Phil sighed and changed his mind. "Okay, fine, you can go Tommy." Tommy high-fived Tubbo and they ran up to go pack. So did Ava and Wilbur, Techno, however, stayed where he stood.

"Need something?" Phil asked. "Just wanted to let you know, you've changed, and it's not for the better, Philza." Techno said and left, leaving Phil confused. Techno went to go pack, deciding how he should have that conversation, because it probably won't be pretty.