The Girl Through The Viewfinder

fall for you

That girl with her high-waist denim jeans, her white shirt tucked in, and her golden pristine hair that waves so flawlessly. There's no other girl that is prettier than her. And I couldn't help but wonder...

Why would that beautiful creature be walking towards me right now?

"Alex! Good morning to you." Autumn smiled so lightly, and my heart feels like it's dropping off. I was too overwhelmed and couldn't be able to speak right away. "Babe?"

Babe?!

She chuckles while tapping my cheek to wake me up and it did universally rework. "You're dazed just now, something in your mind?"

I don't know why suddenly everything about her is.. radiating too much art that even Leonardo da Vinci can't explain. Well, because he's dead, but again, it's an irony. Although it is, I don't think anyone can explain to me why. I think she changed her style, though I don't know, it seems like it's exactly just her style. I somehow feel different.

"Ah, g-good morning to you too- i'll be going on ahead-" I was about to go for a run when she held my wrist back, "Let's go together."

Her eyes are on me, her skin is touching me, and I can hear my own heartbeat deafening me from our surroundings. "Is everything alright? Did something happen last night?" The tint of her worry was suddenly displayed in her eyes. I felt my heart ache.

"Not much happened.., we just talked and caught up with things.. And we should go. I don't want you to be late to class." I look away from her and we both walk alongside each other. I shouldn't act too obvious, "How about your dinner..? Did you ate last night?"

"Yes, I certainly did. Fiona cooked dinner and it was really good! It was like a five-star restaurant." She chuckles and my chest can't seem to calm down, even at any moment.

What is wrong with my heart!?

I have never thought about this.. it's better if I stop it now rather than regret it later. I don't want her to hate me, and I don't want her to leave me first. This will only be temporary. I should stay away from her for awhile.. and once my chest is clear from it.. I'll just come up with whatever reason that'll come out.

The more I think of it, the deeper I dwell on those feelings. And when it comes to autumn, I don't know how to shut myself off if she asks me on the spot.

I may sound stupid for this, but i don't have a choice. I don't want the friendship that we built together to fall apart just because of my selfishness. I still can't believe I look like I am in love with her, I'm glad Claire hinted to me beforehand..

And Claire, to tell me serious things at the last minute. She knows that if she didn't, I wouldn't be letting her go with such an idea. I always reminded her to not take hideous cases and trials where she might get hurt or even worse. But again she wouldn't take it if she didn't have a definite protection on her. I'd trust her to keep herself guarded even so.

Though, she's right.. taking things aside has been a venom that slowly kills both relationship. I don't want that to happen to me and autumn, but, how can I possibly do that..?

Today we have the same schedule of classes, which means my lunch time is the exact same time as hers. And I can already see her in front of the door, waiting for me to be dismissed. No matter how much I want to run away from her, I just can't.

It's awful to think this way.

"Fiona and Liz already reserved a table, is Rachel and Wall coming?" She took a peek inside the class as we have been dismissed, "They have things to do at the dark room I think they're only taking a little bite.." We started walking, and I couldn't look at her, wherein she is that type of person who really likes to make eye contact with me.