anime oneshots

not me ( kuroo x kenma )

song : Sufjan Stevens - Mystery of Love

Kuroo's pov

Long and tough training after a classes in a stressful period of the year, the exam's were approaching and then the training with other teams. Everything was already tensed. Although I was focusing more than usual on my moves so I'll be precise, I noticed that something wasn't right, like at all.

He was not himself. Something felt weird. Looking at his eyes, I saw that he's not feeling well. There were not any sign of the tiny sparkles in his irises, his aura was different. Truth be told, they say that there's no human who is able to sense what's going on with him, but I knew I could. I started to wonder what the problem could be.

Maybe he's just nervous because of the upcoming tests, but I'm not sure... What if there's anything more? Why am I this worried because he seem to be sad? Oh right... I'm in love with him.

"Kuroo, are you listening to me?" asked Lev as he was walking towards me, looked kinda angry.

Ah I have more serious problems now, why should he make it worse by asking questions?

"Guys let's finish this for today, keep your questions for the next training" in the middle I turned to face the tallest in our team, then back to the others. After saying a few words about what they should work on individually and together, I walked to Kenma who was packing the balls quietly.

"Hey, is everything okay?" I lowered my voice and leaned down a bit so the only person who heard my words was him.

"Mhm" he continued what he'd been doing, as I started to help with it, he looked at me. Our eyes met and I knew he lied about being okay.

"I'm staying at yours tonight" I exclaimed firmly, he just nodded in response.

We got changed quickly after finishing the cleaning, me and Kenma were the firsts who left. While we were walking home, he was absolutely quiet, not saying any word at all, no matter how I tried to speak with him. At this point, I was completely anxious.

Yeah, he's not the loud type but he wouldn't ignore me if everything was alright. I am his best friend, he always tells me if something's off, why doesn't he do it now?

"Kenma, what's wrong?" I couldn't hold it longer, when we arrived to the house and I made sure no other human was home, I had to ask.

He clearly flinched and took a few steps back, making the distance between us bigger.

"W-what? How do you..." he avoided eyecontact and his voice was weak.

"I know you, you'd been acting unusual" my mind was a mess, it made up possible happenings, worse and worse.

What if someone hurt him? I would never forgive them, for sure.

I stepped closer to him, and looked at his arm them back to his face waiting for his permission. When he slightly nodded, I held both of his hands, carefully, like I was touching a tiny thing which could break anytime.

"You can always talk to me, okay? If I can make you feel better, go ahead and tell me how" I spoke while slowly hugging him. I felt that he was okay with it, so I had the courage to make the hug tighter.

"Mhm, I know" diffident words said by him after I put my hand on his back. All I wanted was his sorrow to go away, but the opposite happened. As I tilted my head down, I instantly noticed the tears in his eyes, in those beautiful irises which always makes my heart pound faster. I held his face with both of my hands, removing those drops as they were running down.

"It's okay, it's okay" I was comforting myself with these words just as I was doing it to him. "How can I help?" I repeated this question while he snuggled closer to me.

This terrifies me, he rarely cries. It has to be something really serious.

"Just stay here please"

(...)

We cuddled for like an hour on his bed, I was being delicate with him, every single touch of mine was gentle. He was quiet, never said any word, just crying in my arms. I tried to make him feel better by sweet words and a few tiny kisses on his cheeks, which I had never done before but I thought they're gonna help. In one minute he seemed to end letting his tears to escape but the other he wept again.

"I'd like to talk about it.. if you're okay with that" his voice was weak and he was still sobbing.

"Of course I'm okay with it" my fingers were playing with his hair as he raised his chin so he was facing me.

"I-.. I don't how where to start" he seemed to be calmed down a bit, I just gave him a small smile to encourage him.

"Anywhere you want, I'll listen and after that I'll tell you something important" I was planning on confessing because I'd been feeling like we always had something special and after that hour of cuddling I was almost a hundred percent sure about it.

It depends on what the problem is, I'll probably tell him today, if I feel like it would make him feel better.

"Thank you Kuroo" he was whispering and continued speaking like that. "You know Shoyo, right?"

Is he talking about that tiny boy from Karasuno? How is he related to our topic? He doesn't look like he'd hurt anyone.

"Yeah sure, Chibi-chan" I nodded.

"Mhm.. I think I.. no I'm s-.. I like him." he turned to the opposite direction but I catched that he was blushing. I couldn't believe what I heard.

"You mean.. you like him as a friend, or..?" I tried to sound natural while also hiding the jealousy which was growing with every second.

It can't be true, we're meant to be. I need him to love me back.

"um... the other way" these were just words, but they made my heart break. I had to take a really deep breath.

He likes somebody else, not me. Am I sad or os this just anger? Anger because my feelings aren't reciprocated or is that because I don't want him to be unhappy? I can't tell.

"That's the reason why you were crying? There's nothing wrong with feeling attraction towards men" I said looking him in the eyes. I was falling apart on the inside but I showed nothing about it, it'd make the situation worse.

"No.. It's that he doesn't like me back" his tears appeared again, I wiped them down as soon as they left his eyes. "He loves someone else" he wept and moved closer to me, hiding his face by my chest.

"Shh, it's gonna be fine, I promise" I leaned to his ears to say these words, I felt teardrops rolling down on my face simultaneously. Our hug became tighter, I put my hands on his waist and he grabbed my t-shirt. Minutes went by, we were crying holding onto eachother.

"K-kuroo, why are you..?" our teary eyes met as he looked up. I forced a bland smile on my face and held his, slowly smoothing his skin.

"It doesn't matter" I shutted my eyes and leaned down, my lips were kinda close to his, but I didn't do more. "I'll make you the happiest person in the world, no one can hurt you again, okay?"

That's what I want. Even if I can't be his only one, I can see him smiling. Even if my heart's been crushed, I can help him with anything, I can stay his best friend. I would do anything for him, it doesn't matter whether it's me or not me who he loves.

by Kaen