At The End, It's You. (Slow Updates)

Broken Promises Need Fixing

At The End, It's You.

There she was. Stood in front of me. She looked different. Different than last time. Her hair was shorter and it was a different colour. A lighter brown.

Her style changed too, she was wearing a dress.

I had only ever seen her once in a skirt and that wasn't exactly her taste.

Her arm was bandaged though, it looked sore, I wondered what she had done to injure herself, or if someone else had hurt her.

But she was still Erin.

She was still the girl I fell in love with.

And yet, I can't help but feel like this is wrong.

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When we went back home I stopped talking. Not completely but I just didn't feel like talking anymore. It felt wrong to be happy when she wasn't around. I missed her all the time. I felt lonely without her by my side. I felt lost.

I just want her. I want her here next to me. I want to talk to her. I want to be with her. I want to hug her. I simply just want her.

I know being dependent isn't always a good thing, but we were dependent on each other.

And it made me feel secure. So when we left and didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. It felt as though I'd lost the map to my world. I felt lost without her to keep me company in a way the others couldn't.

I thought after a while my mind would forget her face, forget how her voice sounded. I used to wish to forget so that it didn't hurt so much, but seeing her standing in front of me made me glad that my mind liked to remind me of her and cause me pain. Right now I'm not sure what to make of it, or what to feel. The way she looks at me is different. It isn't anger, it isn't sadness, it's disappointment. And I can't help but wonder if she's disappointed that I'm the person she's seeing. Maybe she moved on. Maybe that's why she ignored my presence. I wanted so badly to explain how sorry I was. To tell her I was in love with her. But she was just out of my grasp even when standing in front of me.

I wish I could ignore her like she had when walking past us all. My heart in pieces once again. It was like they broke even more when she disappeared from my sight again.

Every night I stayed up late thinking about her. There wasn't a day where I didn't think of her. And the worst part is that it was the highlight of my day. No matter how much I suffered from seeing her smile in my mind or seeing the memories of us both together playing in my mind, it made me happier. It brought me happiness and it brought me pain. I just wished she knew.

Wish she knew that I loved her.

Wished she knew that when I pictured myself happy, it was with her by my side.

I knew I couldn't let her go again. I had suffered enough and I was sure she had too. But I didn't know how to fix it. How do you fix something that you don't have access to yet?

But it doesn't mean I won't try.

I shouldn't have let her go in the first place. I'll do whatever it takes to get her to trust me again. I'll do whatever it takes to get her to love me. She deserves so much and I'm willing to give everything I have for her. She deserves to feel loved. She deserves to feel noticed like I noticed her.

I notice the emptiness in the room when she's not around.

At times I thought she was a dream. It became so quiet that it felt like she had never actually been by my side, like she was a figment of my imagination. But from the way I feel, I know she's real, and I want her back.

There are people in life that I wish to have met and moved on from.

But Erin isn't one of them.

I remember how I felt when she walked past. How I felt when I laid my eyes on her for the first time in three years. I felt safe. I felt as though I had finally come home. She is my home. I belong with her. I know it.

Watching her walk past without glancing back made me aware of how much pain I caused her by leaving. I knew it back then when I cried in the department store over her and I know it now.

I wanted to stop her from leaving at that exact moment. But it wouldn't have been fair. It would have hurt her more, I can tell. She's changed physically, but I know that she's still the same person. All I have to do now is figure out how to get her to come back home.

Back to me.

a flower knows, when the rain will return,
and if the moon walks out, the sky will understand;
but now it hurts, to watch you leave so soon,
when I don't know, if you will ever come back

But no matter what, I vow to fix this.

I promise that I'll fix it, because you're my priority.

I love you too much to let you go again.

(A/N: This chapter and the next chapter are gonna be shorter, it's just the thoughts of Tae and Yoongi after seeing the girls, and then we gonna get into the story properly I hope) :)