Already home. (Aaron Tveit fanfiction)

12.-

After shopping the things they needed, changing Manhattan for Brooklyn seemed like a good idea. The last time she had time to go to a park and sit doing nothing was the day Aaron found her. The last time they did that together was a couple of days before she moved away.

Now, both were sitting next to each other, looking at the Manhattan buildings and all the noise. Coffees were gone long ago and there weren't many cookies left. Also there weren't too many ideas in Amy's head about what to do and how to behave around Aaron.

After the walking, the trip to Brooklyn and the nonsense talk about everything they had, she made a decision. Amy didn't knew how long that would last. She didn't knew when they'll stop talking or seeing each other so she would enjoy that moment with her best friend as long as it lasted. If things were gonna end there at least, she knew he was ok and having a good life.

And maybe in that moment Aaron realized she was thinking too much, because he was the one to break the silence after a while. "How are things with you parents?" he asked with a very quiet voice. Deep inside he knew that things between Amy and her parents wasn't working well. "We don't talk a lot. It's been awhile since the last time I was in our old town" she explained, trying to sound like it was no big deal. At some point it wasn't, because she was really ok with that relationship. "You always go to see your parents, right?" she continued, taking another cookie from the white box in front of them. "Every time I can. Or they come come here" Aaron answered shrugging his shoulders.

She knew his answer, but it was good to hear that some things hadn't changed. Anyways she smiled. "I don't remembered the last time my parents came to town to see me and not because of work" she whispered, taking a little bit of her cookie and smiling sadly. "Seriously?" Aaron exclaimed but she didn't knew why he was so surprised. Maybe he thought things had changed. Some people simple don't change. "Yes. I always envied that kind of relationship that you and your family have. You know, like if you need and advice or something you just go to talk to them. Damn I remember lots of times when I went to you mom for an advice about stupid chick things" she confessed totally embarrassed, hiding her face in her hands. Amy could felt the heat coming to her face. "You asked my mom for an advice? When? Why?" Aaron asked in a really high and loud tone, almost interrogating the girl, probably because he was totally surprised. "Yes, tons of times. But it doesn't matter now" Amy said trying to left that behind.

Aaron didn't say anything. They stayed looking again to the city in front of them for seconds and then she felt Aaron pushing her with his shoulder and arm. She wasn't looking at him, but Amy could say that he was laughing in his stupid attempt to make her talk. "Fine!" she yelled laughing like a silly girl and pushing Aaron away from her side. "Senior year. Right after you asked me to go to Ithaca with you. I liked you so fucking much, but you were my best friend and I... I was so, so sure that You didn't like me" she continued. "I couldn't go and tell my mom all those things, neither one of the girls who were my friend. I was so scared and kinda alone so I went to talk to your mom. She was so sweet. She told me to don't be scared, that she knew I liked you because she just could see it. She advised me to do what my heart said. And that you were totally into me. Oh god, I can't believe I told you that after all this time!" she told him, one word coming after the other.

When she finished she let herself fall to the grass. It was so embarrassing she almost felt guilty. "You knew I liked you and you never did anything? I was surrounded by traitors! Man, I was hoping that you knew so things will be easier" he exclaimed like totally offended. Amy started to think that maybe he had said something to his mother about it after all this time. "Why easier?" Amy asked, trying not to start laughing really hard. It was totally fun to see him acting like that for something that happened many years ago. "Because I was so fucking scared to tell you something and screw things between us. I always imagined you telling me 'I love you like a brother' or something like that!" Aaron replied, almost yelling at her. Amy really thought he was joking, so she kept playing along. "But you finally kissed me" she chuckled, because the both of them knew how the story was. "Yes, but I... I did it because I was losing you, Amy" he murmured looking away from her.

In that moment her sane was gone as the coffee they had, the cookies they've just finished and the rest of the day. Maybe she was not stable because in that moment, as they both looked at the sunset falling in the city , all she wanted was to stay for the rest of the night looking how the lights and the stars reflect his blue eyes.

And she did. Amy stopped watching the sunset, sat and turns her head right. And oh how she regrets it, because i that moment Aaron turn to looked at her, if a million things wouldn't stopped, she might kissed him. For many reasons, but she would have kissed him no hesitating.

A small part of her analyzed the possibilities of the things that could go wrong or right if she did. It seemed an easy thing to do for how close they were, but Amy put those thoughts away on the back of her mind. It was just stupid. "It's getting late. We should probably go" he suggested. Amy knew it was true, but knowing that after that day things would get probably weird she wanna to be a little longer by his side. "Hey, I know I'm wearing fancy clothes and all the stuff, but you wanna go and grab some shitty food? Like pizza, French fries, whatever. I'm really in that mood right now. It's on me. You paid the coffees and the entire thing" she offered, knowing that he wasn't going to let her pay anything. He never did. "Sure, I know a place near" Aaron simply said, smiling at her.

When Aaron got up from the ground, the guy gave his hand to help her stand. When Amy took it, she felt for a second as if she was home again until she let it go. "Hey, Aaron?" she called him, after they started to walk. "Thank you for bring me here. It's a beautiful view" she smiled at him. "It's not the middle of the bridge and we are a couple years later, but it works, I guess" Aaron answer and he was totally asserted. It was a really good way to settle that old score. "Yes, it totally works" she breathed, looking one last time at the sky and the city.