Already home. (Aaron Tveit fanfiction)

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The Carter siblings went to the theater that night, not because Amy really wanted, just because Ian made her go. At the second that they get in the place, she was looking everywhere, in case she had to hide from someone. And until they were guided and taken to their seats she didn't felt safe. "Bro, I'm not sure about this" she murmured to Ian, the one who was at her right side. "Come on Amy..." the guy murmured, with his nose in the Playbill that they gave him just a seconds before.

The guy looked like he was a kid in a candy store. Or Amy in the M&M world. "Why couldn't you come with a friend or someone else?" Amy asked, trying to act normal, but moving in her seat like she was really needing to pee or something. She was so nervous that she really couldn't stop. "Because I like to do these things with you. Come to Broadway shows it's something I like to do with you" the young man explained, taking her head out of the Playbill and looking at his sister with his best look of 'I told you this five minutes and ten blocks ago'. "I know, but why this show, man? Seriously?" Amy asked again, now being totally unbearable, even to herself. "Because we had the tickets weeks ago and because you need to know if you're over him" Ian explained, again not paying attention to his sister and reading the program.

He was right. Just before the fight with Aaron they heard Catch was closing and IAan begged his sister to take him to he closing night. At that moment she gladly agreed, she even happy to see Aaron with her brother. She had forgotten they had the tickets and when Ian reminded her, Amy tried to refuse but couldn't. You can't promise something to a seventeen years old guy, then regret your decision and try to make him forget about the entire thing.

Amy looked at her phone before turning it off and dropping it in her bag again. There were still 10 minutes for the show began and the room was being filled with people. A lot of people. "Hey, had you talked to him?" Ian suddenly ask, not looking at the Playbill anymore and looking at the stage and then at his sister. "I don't wanna talk about that, bro" Amy simply answered.

The 'Aaron thing' was something that she was avoiding for the last days, since they came back from Middletown. She really didn't wanted to talk about him, even when they were about to see him in the stage. "Fine, fine" Ian whispered, with his attention in the stage. Man, if she was nervous about seeing Aaron again in the stage, Ian was ten time worse. Now that he knew he was going to study Theater it was all he talked about. He showed Amy all his research about Colleges and classes and even half-times jobs to help to pay college and his things. Catch me if you can was the first show he was going to see knowing that someday he could be on that same stage.

Amy looked at Ian watching the stage and his eyes were shining and just that made her smile. Even for a second it made her forget that she was about to see Aaron. But in some point she was there to see him and to see if she was over it or not at all. If she could survive the show maybe it was something good. "When I talk with him the last time, he said that he was sorry like ten times in a minute. You know, he asked me to tell you that. And that he was going to be waiting for your call. He sounded very, very regretful. And sad" Ian suddenly said, even when it wasn't something that Amy already knew. "Well, he should have thought about that before" Amy breathed, trying to act indifferent. Since they went back to Manhattan, Amy was acting like she didn't had said everything she actually said about Aaron and the best weeks of her past years.

After the discussion with her parents Amy explained everything to Ian about how her parents lied to her and what happened with Aaron. And she promised to her brother that she was going to pay for her college and support him no matter what. After that talk she never say a word about Aaron anymore. At least until Ian reminded her about the tickets to the show. "How are you with that entire thing about...? You know. You are still mad at him?" Ian asked, turning a little bit in his seat to look at Amy. "I don't know. Sometimes I say 'Fuck, I'm don't wanna go out of the bed and I wanna forget about him' and other days I'm like 'Fuck, maybe I should call him or something'. I don't even know if I'm still mad. I really thought that this time it would work. You know, ten years later, now that we both grow up. I guess I was wrong again" she explained, looking at her hands in her lap and avoiding Ian's gaze.

She felt totally stupid. The answered should be yes or no and nothing more, but probably knew she was there to try to find that answer. "They say third time charm, right?" Ian exclaimed with a smile on his face. The guy really wanted Amy to be happy and he knew that deep, deep inside she still loved him, even when she didn't say anything, not even Aaron's name. And besides, Amy knew that Ian really liked Aaron, so in part he was really insistent for that reason. "Yes, but I don't think there's going to be a third time" she answered, with a sad smile, looking at her brother and then at the Playbill in the guy's hand. She really wanted to look at it, but his photo was there and she couldn't look at him. She wasn't ready yet.

Or maybe she was, but it was late because the lights were down. Hey sis, do you think you can talk with mom and dad about my college? You know, about what we talk..." Ian whispered in her ear very softly, so only she could hear. "It's going to be hard but yes, of course I'll talk to them, I" she answered in the same way. There was nothing that she wouldn't do for that boy. She never overreacted all the times that she said that she could take a bullet for her brother. If Amy had to she would do it. "Thank you, sis. And if you need it you can grab my hand. I'll be here for you" he murmured on last time, squeezing Amy hand. "Thanks you, big boy" she said him back. When the lights were totally out and the music started, Amy knew that it was maybe the last time that she had to find out if she was over with the Aaron story or not at all. She had two hours and half to find out if she could survive to the show and put an end to their story, or if it was going to turn into the worst nightmare for her heart and the end of her own sanity. Whatever it was, it was going to be hard as hell to find out.