Black Rose (Rosé X Male Reader)

Chapter 24 (Realization)

(Y/N)'s POV

A kiss... it was something I had never gotten in many years. I didn't even remember the last time I got a kiss from someone nor I kissed someone.

But this kiss, this was something I had never experience before. When my lips touch her soft ones, I couldn't describe how... 'wow', this moment was...

The thing I had never experienced my whole life. From what I knew, this type of kiss was only done to those who loved each other. With this kiss, and that statement...

I... love her? This feeling... so this is how it feels when couples are kissing. It feels... warm. And I feel... loved. In different way from how other people love me. This one feels so special.

Her lips were the best thing I had ever felt in my life. I could feel so much love, compassion, gentleness... I couldn't control myself as I slowly deepened the kiss, making her gasped lightly.

But she kept kissing me. It felt like the time had stopped, like there were only two of us in this world. I couldn't hold myself anymore...

Yes... I love her... more than anything.

But when air became our top priority, we had no choice but to create some space for both of us to breath, releasing some gasps from our lips and a line of saliva that were connecting us.

"R-Rosie... what exactly... are we?" I slowly grabbed her hand and caressed it in a circle as she relaxed on it.

"I-I..." but when I looked into her eyes, it looked so different from what I expected.

I was hoping that she'd enjoy every second we spent for the kiss. But all I saw in her eyes was... regret?

"I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have done that." She bowed her head in shame as her eyes were locked to the ground, leaving me confused with her sudden apology since there was nothing to be sorry about.

If there was even anything, I should be the one to apologize.

"For what?" I slowly caressed her cheeks with my hands gently before lifting her head. Yet her eyes seemed to be looking somewhere else. "Rosie... look at me."

As her eyes rolled and locked back to mine, I could see tears welling in her eyes as I patiently waited for her sweet lips to spell her reason. "I-I'm sorry." Her tears started falling down her cheeks.

I still waited for her to spill everything as I wiped every single tear that left her eyes and ruining her cheeks.

"T-That was your actual... first kiss, right?" she questioned with low tone.

With a low sigh and quizzed expression, I replied. "It-It was..." I tried to sound calm as I didn't want to make her crying even worse that this. But me being completely oblivious at this, she sobbed even more. "Hey, what's wrong?" her tears started building up again as she sobbed even more.

"I-I promised myself not to kiss you. Because you wouldn't have my first kiss. It'll be so unfair for you *sobs*. I get to take your first but not for you. If only I hadn't dated that Chanyeol..." She lost control of her sobs as more tears started to fall...

And to be honest, "O-Oh..."

To be honest... first or wasn't, it was right on the bottom of my list of 'why I loved Rosie'. But all I cared about, it was her. No one else. As long as it was with the girl named Roseanne Park, the one I knew, I didn't care about anything else. First, second, it was just some stupid status.

The thought never really crossed my mind... because it was never inside my head. All that was in my mind... was this girl.

I pulled the crying angel into a hug as she cried more on my chest, making my shirt wet of her tears as she added a grip. This girl... thought too much for me. She didn't want to kiss me just because I wasn't her first.