Silence makes me safe.(tommyinnit adoption au)

||2|| Quiet.

(i have no idea i wrote this stupid book, so new chapter. :3 thanks @boo_beloved for reminding me) tw sh lmao
Also I'm not proof reading this suck it up!

Tommy's pov:

I stare up at the person, they looks quite nice? I guess that is one way to put it..
I was paralyzed from fear,I didn't know what to do.. Just don't move.
The person, Phil looked confused at me, "Um, hey buddy? You ok..?" he asked, his voice calmed me a bit, so I gave in, and i raised my hand, and waved at him.
"Hi" I manage to mumble out, just badly above a  whisper, I look up from behind my wings, to this.. person? Hybrid? He had big fluffy wings, his hair a bleach blonde, maybe this won't be so back..

"So, uh how old are you?," he asked me, a hint of consign laced his voice, staring at me his blue eyes were burning holes into my skin, I scramble to find my note book.
I write down, 'sorry, I'm 14.' And then hand it to him, my hands were shaking, I wish they would stop.
His judging eyes scanned the page, then he nodded and handed it back to me.
"14, right? I have some kids at home that are around your age" he smiled warmly at me, his tone was happy, no undertones. No matter what he says, just stay quiet Tom.
He kept talking. And I listened. I was happy.

"TOMMY!!!!" A voice boomed, it echoed across the building, I though my wings around me, and hid, 'please don't hurt me, pls.' I thought.
Holding my book harder, I try my best not to cry around Phil. My throat was closing up, it was getting harder to breath,  'who was yelling? What did I do? Did I talk to much. God I'm sick a-'
the door slammed open, making me jump, I felt a cold hand grip my burnt and bruised arm.
"Tom, your time was up 20 minutes ago. Let's go." Mrs lee said with venom in her voice.
I yelped from the school and pain. She dragged me out of my room her voice sounded distorted, I felt so dizzy..
"Cmon! Let's get you back to your room!" Her face stretched in to a fake smile, I look at Phil, the tears from my panic attack draped down my face, I saw his nice warm smile melt off his face, he...
That told me all I needed to know, i reluctantly walked away, I slowly came to the realization that I fucked up the only chance I had to be happy.

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"Tommy what did you tell him?" I felt mrs Lee's nails dig into my blistered arm, we were far enough away that no one could hear, I just look up at her with my tear filled eyes, and I shake my head, 'I didn't tell him anything,' I thought.
Remember Tom, silence makes you safe, don't talk unless necessary. I feel the hand on my arm grip harder as Mrs Lee sighs in frustration, I wince at the pain, but suck it up.

We got to my room, the cold dark halls around it were quiet.. my door swung open, and I was thrown in, the door slammed behind me.
This was normal, it was always like this. All I could do was lay there and think what did I do? I slowly get up,was something wrong with me? I slowly navigate the dark room, not bothering to turn the lights on, I mean what was the point.. I had something else to 'light' it up with.
I found what I was looking for, in the dark, cold blue lighting, I saw it.
I grabbed it as if it was as fragile as a egg, and lightly held it in my hands.
My lighter, one of many, In the dark lighting, I sit down on my bed, and stared down at it, letting me finger feel the spark wheel, up and down my thumb went. Until I couldn't handle it anymore. I drag my thumb down quickly, making it light.

The room lit up with a yellow-orange tint, I smiled.
Slowly, I lower the lighter to my arm, letting the flame dance along it.
The burning helped numb the thoughts, the heat felt like a warm hug, something I had longed for.
The longer I held it there, the worse it hurt, but the pain was only a small price to pay for this feeling, I wove the glowing flame down my arm a bit more, to more sensitive skin.
Taking a sharp breath, and pulling the flame back.
That hurt a bit to much?
I sigh, maybe it's time for me to head off to bed right? I get up to grab some bandages, I go through my bag, and grab some, wrapping them around my arm, the pressure made me flinch. The burns hurt when I did this, but I can't let people see, no one can know what I'm going though, just as I go to lay down, I see my note book, over to where I was thrown into my room, maybe I should write in it tonight, I've been skipping it a lot..
I pick it up, might as well? I have nothing better to do.

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Entry 108.
Me again, funny right? I thought I would be dead already, but I guess not.
Anyways, I miss you gray, please like, un die? Become alive again, I really need you.
Today some guy came to see me, probably just going to use me for that government money right away.
If that house doesn't work out I have no clue I'm going to do. :) alright I'm bored of writing, TOMMY OUT!
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I put down the book, well. That was boring af. I flop on down on my bed, the thin covers barely enough to keep me warm, wow. So pathetic.
Maybe tomorrow will be better? Or maybe I'll just drift into a nightmare..
I slowly drift off to sleep.. god I jinxed it.-

HI ROSE BUDS! BEEN ALMOST A YEAR LMAO. IM SO SORRY I HAVENT BEEN POSTING. I BURNET MYSELF TF OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
ANYWAYS HAVE A GREAT DAYYY!!

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