Destruction

Chapter 4

23/3/2009

A week later Meredith was released from the hospital, she was home alone, she like she had been all week. She hadn't been cleared to come back to work yet. This made her angry. Yes she had been raped. Yes she was broken but that didn't mean she couldn't work. It certainly  didn't mean she couldn't do surgery, in fact that would probably help the recovery time. But nobody would listen to her.

They saw her as what she was.

What she had become.

Broken.

She was restless, sat in bed fiddling with her blanket. She felt so alone, she wished Derek would stay at home with her but she knew it was unfair to ask him.

But she didn't feel safe. Every noise, every sound sent her into a spiral of anxiety.

Just as Meredith was about to get a glass of water she heard a loud crash coming from downstairs. She panicked.

Meredith dropped to the floor and scooted back against the wall, terrified.

She pushed herself as fair against the wall as she could and cried, she shook so hard she could feel her back bruising against the wall. Her breathing was so loud that she couldn't heart the door open.

"Mer?" A voice. But Meredith couldn't focus. She thought she was imagining it.

"Mer?' Meredith!" Alex came into view. He crouched down in front of her.

Meredith breathed a sigh of relief but couldn't stop the tears that fell down her cheeks.

"Mer it's okay, let me help you" Alex said softly, he picked her up and placed her on the bed.

It's okay" he whispered again.  Alex waited with her till she fell asleep and then got up and left.

1/04/2009

Meredith couldn't remember the last time she ate, whenever Derek got home and offered her food she always lied and claimed to have eaten during the day.

She hadn't.

She sat in bed all day staring at walls and wishing the earth would crack open and suck get to her death.

She was getting thinner and thinner, nobody noticed because nobody wanted to come and see her. Christina was awol and she hadn't seen Alex since her panic attack. She'd probably scared him off.

Derek was too tried to notice her weight that had fluctuated so much.

It was okay though.

She was okay.

She was.

Really.

7/04/2009

"Good news Dr Grey" Dr Wyatt beamed. Meredith raised her eyebrow.

"You've been cleared for surgery!"

Meredith smiled, her eyes glistened happily.

"You start back tomorrow"

8/04/2009

"Scalpel" Doctor Webber said hastily.

Meredith was assisting on a kidney transplant. She has never felt happier, god forbid she ever have a child and miss out on working for longer.

One minute she was standing across from Webber, eager and ready to help. The next she was crashing to the floor. Everything went dark.

When she came to, she was in a hospital bed, Derek was sat next to her.