you fucked me up.

Part 1

lost. thats the only way i feel i can describe the way i feel. The way she made me feel. The way      ...she left me.

I run out of the school a huge smile on my face. "finally summer" I jump up in excitement. I close my eyes and breath in the fresh air before feeling a slight grip around my waist as im lifted into the air. "ugh i cant wait to spend everyday with you!!" my best friend (Luna) says setting me down gently. "i cant wait either its gonna be so fun having you here to keep me company!!" 

me and Luna spent endless days, nights, hours, weekends, and seconds together. Her company made me feel happy. Like i could trust her like maybe she was different..But isn't that how everything starts out.. The days got longer until summer was over and it was back to school. Me and Luna still talked everyday but it was harder since we had different classes but we still hung out after school and stuff. Until one night 

Luna: hey babes...

You: hey..? whats wrong..? 

Luna: my..dad..he got out of control again.. and h...hit me..

You: wait what..?!?!?! no way you need to tell someone Luna im not letting you stay there you need to call someone

Luna: are you crazy im not telling anyone 

Long story short she told someone.. my heart was happy the only thing that was a little sad to face with was her moving.. it was like being stabbed with a knife sharper then razor. I felt lost without her..what would i do without my best friend there with me.. i just kept telling myself she would still be there..she would be safer and she would be..happier.. 

The first few days went by and i waited till the day she had to leave we made the most of her time left here and i treasured it.. her smile would make me forget she was leaving.. it was like a light flashing in the dark room that held me hostage.. It was harder for me and Luna to talk on the phone so we made up some excuse that we where working on a project together so we could call since her dad didn't like me. Everyday i felt a stronger connection to Luna i began to feel something other then a friendship for her.. and i was confused i mean Luna had told me she liked me but i didn't know i felt the same..but i did Luna was the only living sole i loved.. her smile made my stomach turn and laugh could make anyone fall hard.. I loved how Luna could just sit there and listen to you for hours she was amazing at that. Listening she was like a living diary. You tell her things and she holds onto them. I loved that about her. among other things but Luna all together was amazing. 

The last day was the hardest. Luna called me the second she got a phone. She was in a hotel with her mom and brother. They where all so nice and her mom loved me from the start. She always said "yk i never believed in soulmates till i met you guys you truly are soulmates" i would always smile at the comment cause i loved Luna and the thought of us being together forever made me feel so happy. Me and Luna called everyday. For weeks and days and hours.. just like we used to..till one day she stopped answering as much... she disappeared.. she went silent... till one day. 

Luna: omg im so sorry i was grounded!!! 

You: oh its ok!! i missed you 

Luna: yeah same!! guess what!! 

You: what!!! 

Luna: i got a boyfriend!! 

those four words.. something i never thought i would care to hear till it came out her mouth. it hurt like a piece of me was taken out..god how i wish i could go back and never reply or maybe never let her leave in the first place.. Cause from there everything went downhill.. are conversations got shorter..are calls stopped..and soon everything stopped..i wish i could go back and never say anything to her..i wish i never met her.. cause deep down she hurt..her laugh might've made me happy and her smile might've lit up every room but in reality was a girl who just wanted love and used someone who needed it more to get it. The way she manipulated me..by watching movies with me.. having conversations at 3 am that cheered me up when i was lost in life or when we sang our song at the top of our lungs..how could she leave me left with nothing but memories that made me break down at the thought of them..was it worth it..was it worth loosing every last bit of happiness for a girl.. i keep asking myself this and i don't know what the answer is. i don't know if i will ever be better. i don't know how long it will take me to recover.. i don't how long it will take me to get over the fact she moved on and cant even realize it herself all i know for sure is...you fucked me up..