Broken Without You

CHAPTER • 19

Today I have to see him I don't want to even look at his face.

I sat in the car and drove to his company.

I don't even know what I'm going to say.
By the way what is there to say it's not like it's my fault!

I entered the elevator of his company and pressed the top floor. The elevator dinged indicating that I have reached his floor.

When I exited the elevator I saw Zayn and my mood instantly felt better.

We got to know each other while I was working on the fraud case for which we went to Spain in the first place! We used to chat back and forth he is more like a brother to me.

Zayn is a nice guy, fun, and loving!

he noticed my presence and hugged me

"Ella, what is it? You have bags under your eyes have you been busy at night?"
He said while wiggling his eyebrows

"Oh shut up it's nothing like that. It's just that workload after coming back from Spain has increased"

which was actually true but the bags were not because of that it was because of me crying excessively.

Suddenly his phone ranged and he picked it up After few second he said "now you can go everyone is waiting"

My shoulder were tense because of him !!!

I don't want to face him!!!

I took a deep breath and reach for his door knob and walked in followed by Zayn.

And guess what, no other member of the board was there it was only Alex leaning on his desk with his hand crossed in front of his  chest. When my eyes met him I saw his stubble had grown his shirt sleeves were rolled up first two buttons of his shirt were unbuttoned tied loosely hanging around his neck.
And a glass of whiskey was just kept beside him!

He is a mess!

I turned around to see Zayn looking at me with an apologetic look while I glared at him
But eventually, I asked him to leave because I didn't want to make a scene in front of him

I turned my attention back to him once Zayn left the room
What did he think that I would never find about his side flings while he made love to me?

"Where are the other board members?" I asked while crossing my hands in front of my chest.

He just shrugged and said "There is no meeting, u won't see me if not for this meeting" he said

"Okay so now you call me for no reason, I have a very busy schedule, Mr. Alexander Wilson!" I said raising my voice a bit

"Why in the fucking hell did you leave, I was worried for you but you didn't even considered informing me before leaving" his voice boomed

"I guess I wanted to make you feel how I felt when you left" I said with a smirk

I somewhat felt bad but I didn't let that stop me from saying the things that should be said he can't leave when he wants and come according to his wish!

"No you don't mean that" Alex said his eyes turning vulnerable

"Well hate to break it to you but I do mean it," I said and rushed out of the building hearing Alex calling my name but I exited the building and drove quickly not wanting him to see me in tears

I parked near a parking lot on the way and broke into a sob.
I don't want to lose him but we can't just go back and forth again and again I want all of him but I don't think he wanted that.

I loved him I never stopped loving him!

I sniffled between the sob my phone interrupted and I composed myself before picking up my phone.

"Hello" my voice coming out hoarse from all the crying

"What happened? Are you okay" Chloe asked worried

"Yeah I'm fine just woke up" I lied which is a terrible one

"Okay!" Not convinced

Before she could any more questions

"I'll call you back okay" and I cut the line

I wiped my tears, pulled back on the road and drove to my apartment not wanting to go to firm.

Multiple texts from Alex kept on coming.

I recently changed his emoji to 🥰 from 👹

🥰
Baby tell me what did I do

🥰
Don't turn your back on me

🥰
Plz call me

🥰
FOR GOD SAKE TALK TO ME!!!

I blocked his number not wanting to talk to him.

And reached the apartment, changed my clothes to something comfortable and sat on the couch to watch a movie along with a tub of my strawberry ice cream.

I decided to watch The Fault In Our Stars

not to be dramatic but I don't wish to watch a happy-ever-after kind of love story because it is all a lie!

Love doesn't exist it's just fiction and in luck for some because in my case my luck isn't on my side.

After what felt like an hour passed I heard my doorbell ring I got up and peeked through the hole to make sure that Alex wasn't there but instead I saw Layla, Chloe and Aria standing.

I opened the door and saw them entering without even acknowledging me

"Hello I'm here guys" said waving in front of them

"Oh really cause what we see is a girl dressed like a homeless"

"What did you think that I would not be able to figure out that something was wrong" Chloe continued

"Look it was nothing just I had to go to Alex's office today for a meeting but he lied about it because when I went there no one was in the board room except him"

"We fought and I might have said something that I didn't mean" Tears started to well up in my eyes and Layla and Chloe pulled me in a hug along with Layla.

"Okay! So let's have a girl's night" Layla suggested while going into the kitchen and getting us some beer.

"Yeah! Will have fun!" Rhea exclaimed

I know they are trying their best to get my mind off of him and I really love them for that but I just can't accept that he and I can't be together.  Or I don't want to.

They might have noticed me zoning out so they asked me to sit on the couch and both the side Chloe and Aria sat while Layla sat down facing me .

"Look Ella we cannot change what happened but what can we do is try to move on I already knew that bastard was good for nothing! but I know that he was your first in everything, you can't just hold onto one person for the rest of your life" Layla said while holding my hand

"Yeah! But for now, just don't stress over him take a break from all the drama and let's watch a movie!" Chloe suggested

"Let's watch Lucifer I've heard the show is awesome" Aria said

"Guys I really appreciate you being here" I said with a smile and the group hugged them.