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i deleted the other part about everything just because. anyway, i hope you guys understand. im still updating this book as often as possible just like usual.

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|| JJ ||

All I can think about is the fact that he's too good for me. He can do way better. So why me?

I'm ditching the whole day, I decide. Fuck school.

I can't believe he would say that we were dating. And now he's going to regret it, big time. He's stupid.

I pull the grass out of the ground I'm sitting on, it's a habit of mine. And then it hits me.

I'm a terrible person, who would leave someone there to get hurt? I shouldn't have given in so early.

What if they hurt him really bad and he has to go to the hospital or something?

I'm sure he'll be fine, I remind myself. He's a strong person.

I take a deep breath, and look around the park I'm in. No one's here, probably because it's Monday morning and people have work and school.

The only people I see is a gross couple practically eating each other's faces off.

Normally I would be disgusted, and I am, but I also somehow find myself wishing Jack was here.

But he's getting beaten up by Sammy and Skate.

"Oh my god," I mumble, as I get up.

How have I not gone back yet?

I run back to the school, it's really not that far, just around the block.

I run to where we were earlier, the back of the school.

Only to find Jack, not even fighting back while Sammy beats the shit out of him.

I know he can fight pretty damn well. I should know better than anyone.

I run up to them, and Sammy stops and stares at me.

"What the hell are you doing here?"

"I can be here if I want to, you douche. Let him go," I say, a sudden wave of confidence overcoming me. (lol wUT)

"Jack, just leave," Jack says.

"What?!" I say. "No, I won't leave!"

"I deserve it," He says. "So get the fuck out of here and go to class."

"What? No, you don't deserve this!" I say.

"Oh my god, shut up," Sammy mumbles.

"How about you shut your fucking mouth and leave, Sammy?! Nobody likes you anyway!" I yell.

He looks taken aback for a second, then his expression changes as he pushes Gilinsky away.

"No one likes me, hmm?" He says, walking towards me. "Look who's talking, you worthless piece of shit."

"Okay, I'm worthless. And a piece of shit. I'll let you have that," I say. "Just stop and let him go."

"He told me to do this though," Sammy says, a small smirk appearing on his face. "Right after you left."

I turn around and look at Jack. "Uh, Jack?! What the hell is your problem! You don't just tell people to beat you up!"

"You did, to me when Sammy told me to earlier," He says.

"That's...That's totally different! It was to protect you, because you obviously can't do that yourself, and God knows why you aren't now!" I yell, starting to get really pissed off at Jack, and Sammy, and just at this whole situation. "And now, look at you! You have bruises all over!"

"So?" Sammy says. "Just a couple of bruises. You know how it feels, Johnson. Not that bad."

"So, it kills me to him like this! Will you just leave already? Don't you have some girl to fuck in the janitor's closet, you manwhore?"

"Don't you have some guy to fuck in the locker rooms you fag?"

"Don't you have some girl to give you a blow job in the middle of class, you asshole?"

He walks up to me. "Go to hell."

And before I know it, he slams me onto the ground, so hard that my ears are ringing and my vision is blurred.

I try to get up and walk over, but everything turns blurrier and blurrier.

And then everything turns black.

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My eyes flutter open, and the first thing I see is Jack looking down at me. I quickly realize my head is on his lap.

"You're awake."

I sit up, to find out we are in Jack's car. The back seats, to he exact.

"Uh, Jack, what time is it?" I ask, rubbing my eyes, then wincing because of the pain in my head.

"Five," He answers.

"Why aren't we at home then?" I ask.

"You kinda fainted," He says.

"Why did you do that?" I ask him.

"Do what?"

"Why didn't you just lie? Your reputation is gone. Your life is going to be like hell."

"Because I don't care about my reputation," He says simply.

"Jack, what happened today, will become a regular thing for you," I say. "And you made a big mistake."

"I'm fine with getting beat up everyday, I mean I deserve it after what I did to you."

"Don't say that," I say, looking out the window. "I can't believe you told Sammy about us."

"Are you really mad?" Jack says, putting his hand on my shoulder. "I thought you might be happy."

I turn around. "Do you realize what you've done?"

"Yes, and I'm okay with it."

I groan. "You are impossible!"

He smiles. "I'm acing debate. But really, Jack, I don't care about my reputation. I love you, okay?"

My cheeks heat up. Sure, we've exchanged 'I love you's' before, but somehow this is different.

"I love you too," I finally say.

He just chuckles.

I kiss his cheek, and we just sit there, in the back seat of his car, for God knows how long.

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this chapter sucked srry srry srry i fail a lot and this is a perfect example