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Chapter Thirty-Four: Heart Break

SONG: SAD BEAUTIFUL TRAGIC BY TAYLOR SWIFT
*you might want to play it near the end*

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I need to tell him.

No I don't.

If I don't it'll get very messy.

If I do, we'll both end up hurting and we'll have to end it.

But if I don't we'll be living a lie. And someone else would tell him anyway.

I stood outside Trey's bedroom door, arguing with myself. It was already the next day and I had prepped myself to tell Trey something but I didn't know what yet. I had avoided him last night, although he tried to find me. I wanted to delay this moment as long as possible.

Oh don't get me wrong, I wasn't going to break it off. I was completely okay with being with Trey even though I was supposed to be with Parker. I was more afraid that he might break it off, saying it would be the right thing to do. That he would think that if he was more involved in my life, he would mess up everything for me.

Yeah, I was pretty sure Trey was one of those people that jumped to stupid conclusions.

I forced myself to knock on the door and then I stood there, staring at the ground deep in thought. I was half hoping that Trey wouldn't hear the knock and would continue sleeping. I mean, that's what his mom told me when I first came to their cabin so I hoped he really was sleeping. It would give me an excuse to walk away and tell him later.

Apparently fate had other plans because the door opened, revealing a shirtless Trey with messy hair. He blinked several times, trying to get rid of the sleepy haze while I gaped at him like an idiot.

Oh my flying donuts he was beautiful.

Trey grinned at me. "Hey Sunshine. What time is it?" His voice was husky with sleep. The things that did to me. . .

I regained my composure before he noticed how affected I was by him. "Ten o' clock. I thought you would be up already."

Trey raised an arm to scratch the back of his head, making it even harder to look somewhere other than his face. "I was up late last night with Ben and. . ." He trailed off and then grinned wickedly. "Like what you see?"

I blushed so hard when I realized my eyes were starting to drift. "I hate you." I muttered. "I guess I'll just leave and come back when you put on a shirt or something."

I turned but Trey caught my wrist and pulled me to him, crushing me against his chest. "I was kidding. I hadn't realized how distracting I was."

I rolled my eyes. "Liar."

"Since when did you become Sera?"

I took one look at his dancing his eyes and broad smile and I felt my heart sink deeper. I didn't want to tell him.

"What's wrong?" Trey asked with a frown. "You didn't laugh."

I sighed. "Can I come inside first?"

He seemed to realize that we were still standing in the doorway of his bedroom and let me in, closing the door behind us and locking it. I raised my eyebrows at him when I saw that and he shrugged. "My sister is nosy, my brother is innocent and there are some things my parents shouldn't witness."

I choked on air. "What in the world do you think is going to happen right now?"

He walked toward me slowly with a small smile that made me shiver. "Many things could happen. You never know. One thing could lead to another and..." Now he was sitting in front of me and bringing me in for a kiss but I stopped him.