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False god (TH)

Author: spidernerdsblog

Warnings: angst

Everything seemed perfect until it wasn't. Your rather happy and prosperous life was crumbling in front of your eyes and you didn't know what to do. A rift has been forming between you and Tom and it is getting wider day by day.

Since the day Tom has returned from filming he has been acting distant. Your long late night conversations where he used to pour his heart out to sharing each and every thing that happened with him while he was away has come down to bare minimum only if it's necessary. His hugs no longer had the warmth you were familiar with; neither were his kisses. It felt forced and deliberate.

You knew that being in a relationship with a world known actor like Tom would be tough. He is always travelling to different places around the world to make more movies but never you'd imagine that distance would become the weak point of your relationship. Everybody had warned you about times like this when the distance between you would feel way too much as if you don't know the person anymore. It made you question your decisions, maybe it was crazy of you to rush into a relationship. The promises you made to be there for each other now feels stupid and childish.

After finishing all your daily chores you headed to your shared bedroom. Tom was already in bed glancing at the ceiling lost in his own thoughts as you walked to your side of the bed and laid down. Everything was so still only the shallow breathing of yours could be heard the silence cutting to your core. You tried to take the initiative and went to wrap your arms around him and snuggle close as you always used to do.

"Not tonight baby I'm tired" to your surprise Tom pushed you away with a hint irritation in his voice as he turned to his side facing his back to you. You retracted your hands in guilt of coming off as clingy. You turn to your side as you sob silently, the fact that you were so close to each other but it felt he was out of your reach.

You hoped that things would get better, maybe he needed some space but it just got worse for you. It looked like he was avoiding you as he spent most of the time outside of the house. Is this what everybody warned you about? The guy who used to follow you around like a lovesick fool suddenly you feel you have become an eye sore for him. But still you wanted to hold on to the last straw. You were blinded by the faith in him and the love you had that made you keep your hopes alive that this shall pass and soon he come running back to you.

You didn't want to give up so easily as you tried to make him talk to you about whatever it was bothering him but he was always cold and resilient about it.

"Hey hon let's go out for dinner tonight what do you say?" you ask thinking that you both needed to blow of some steam and enjoy.

"Nah I'm good babe" he turns down your offer plainly engrossed in watching whatever was playing on the TV while sitting on the couch.

"Oh ok" you say gloomily as you turn to go back to your room when you hear his phone ring.

"Hey Haz what's up mate?" Tom sounded cheerful as he talked to his best friend.

"At the pub? Yeah sure why not. I'll be there by seven" he confirms before hanging up the phone.

That hurted you immensely has your relationship come to this where he'd rather not go out spend a little time with you. Has his dislike for you gone to that extent? you thought fighting back your tears. The last blow came when the other day you accidentally overheard him while he was in the study speaking to someone on his phone.

"No I can't do this anymore. I'm fucking tired!" Tom said with distaste in his voice.

That was it you couldn't bear to hear anymore as you ran to your bedroom with tears in your eyes. You sat on the bed as your eyes went to the framed photographs of you and Tom as memories flashed in front of your eyes. You looked so happy around each other everything seemed so perfect but now he is tired of you. You are no more his favorite thing to look at. If it is so then why pretend? If he's eventually gonna break your heart why not get it done already you don't want to be a burden in someone's life.