Luke picked me up around noon. He drove for hours. You could see the black under his eyes, he didn't sleep. He was silent. I grabbed his hand but he pulled it away. I was worried, what is going to happen? The sun was setting and we were in the middle of nowhere. He pulled over to the side of the road and parked the car. Hr grabbed my hand and walked me into a wheat felled. In the middle of it he stopped.
"Rydel," he said "I am so much in love with you. I can't live without. I know life has been hard on you, but I want to do this tonight."
He grabbed my hands and looked deeply into my eyes. "Run away with me"
"What?" I asked
"Run away with me. Just you and me, please?" he asked
"Luke," I said. I was surprised "Why?"
"Because, when we leave, peopl will have to forget about us. Leave everything behide, our phones, computers, beds, sell them , get money and run away, get jobs, be rich, be who ever we want. Their will be no one to tell us who we are going to be, we can get wild, start a family, get married, never have to worry about anything." he said
I looked down.
"Please?" he asked
"Luke, I would love to do that, but I started my life"
His smiled wet away.
"I just got an appartment, a job and my best friend back. And you want me to leave all of this?" I asked
"Life's been a witch, and you still want to live here?" he asked getting mad "No matter how hard I worked to have this relationship, you want to throw it all away?"
"Luke, I didn't say that" I said
"Then, you'll go?" he asked
I sighed "I can't"
He walked away and then came back "You until tonight at tweve. Come to my house with everything, will go around tomorrow selling it and starting a new life."
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It was 11:50 and I couldn't make up my mind. Should I stay? Should I go? Time went faster and faster by the minute. Should I leave everything behide. I got my phone and texted Luke
'I love you'
Tears came to my eyes knowing what I just done. I looked at me phone and saw that it was tweve. Tears came out and I cryed all night knowing that I will never see him again and if I do, I all ready started my new life with a different man. I grabbed my cup and threw it againt th wall, making it break into a million pieces. I sat their in a ball and cryed. The door bell rang and I got up, hoping it was Luke, I opened the door and saw that it was Emily
"What's wrong?" she asked
I told her everything in breaths of trying to clam myself down.
"I'm sorry" she said "I brought ice cream if you want it"
"I want Luke" I said and cryed again. "All I can think of is Luke and I can't stop!"
"I'm sorry. Is their anything I can do?" she asked
"If you can track him down and bring him back, I would love you forever" I said
She sighed "You should rest"
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I had a box in my hands and I was walking up the steps to the house. A woman opened the door and I went inside. I walked up stairs and turned into a room. I saw Luke's back facing toward me. He turned around in his chair and smiles. He gets up and kissed me on the lips, something I have never seen before. He grabs the box frmo my hands and sets it down. He lays me down and gets on top of me. We made out and then he goes down the my neck. Then everything goes fuzzly. i don't know whats going on.
I sat up full of sweat, a dream that I never thought would happen. Emily got up a touched my hand
"You okay?" She asked
I looked at her and started to cry. She hugged me
"Is okay" she said "It will be all right"
"Will it?" I asked
"I don't know" she asked "What happened?"
"I ran away with him" I said "We kissed on the lips. We never done that"
"Really?" she asked
"I was saving it for the perfect moment. That moment will never come."
"It will, just not soon. It will happen when you meet again. When you see each other for the first time in forever, he sees you, you grab his head and you pull him to you and you kiss him and he tells you how much you love him an then you guys fall for each other again and you guys get married and have kids. It will happen, just not soon" she said
She's right. It will happen in the future. It may not be soon, but it will happen. I believe it will happen. God just has to make it happen. This is the sadest part of my life. Losing him was the hardest thing in my whole life. How can I get him back? How can I survive without him? Will we meet when were in our 20s? 40s? Will we meet when were old? Will we never meet? Will I be on my death bad will we meet? Will he be dead? Will I be dead? This doesn't matter. We will meet again, now now. Soon. May be in a few years but it will. I believe. But does He?
