ASHWINEYYY'S KULUKULU

Chapter 17

Sivaangi:Ipo ellam ponga..I don't need anyone..I need to be alone.

They were going out while Sivaangi called Rahul.

Sivaangi: Rahul enakku eppo discharge?

Rahul:Rendu naalu kalichi..

Sivaangi:Enakku oru help panriya?

Rahul:Sollu ma..

Sivaangi: Odamba paathuko..eppovum un mela unaku confidence koraya kudadhu..nalla veladu..onula fail aanalum nyabagam vechiko.."Failures are a part of life..you just need to work hard for the next one"

Rahul(yelling): EYYYYY!! 

(With him screaming everyone came in to see what happened)

Rahul(yelling):Munjliye onnu vechena!! Enna di nenachituiruka..evono edho pannadhuku enga ellaryum kashta padthi vitutu poreney sollitu iruka!! Anga oruthavan onnaku accident nu therinjadhu ler indhu uyire pona maari aludhutu irukan inga madam ku yaarum venama..naanum porumiya seri paravailla seri aaiduva nu chumma irundha idhaan nee engala last time paaka pora maariye pesitu iruka..enna di unakku prechana!! Epdi ellaryum kalati vidalanu plan panriya enna!! Unnaku arivu iruka ..avan apidi pannadhuku poi avan kai ah oda illaya avan munja oda ..avan mela kaatu ella verupiyum..Chumma enna gaandu ethikitu..Poralaamaaaa..edhiyavudhu eduthu adichira poren..enna theriyuma..unakku rendu naal kalichi discharge illa nalaiku kalela discharge aana naa Doctor kita pesi rendu naal extend panniklan nu irundhen..hospital la irundha ingiye irupa adhukulla unna seri aakidalam un manasa maathidalanu aana nee ipdiye pesitu irundhenu vei uh naa inga velangu maati hospital liye iruka vechiduvan paathuko!!

Sivaangi's pov:

Tears flooded my eyes..

Sivaangi :Rahhhh..wait..Probably I'm wrong ..but what do I do when I feel disgusted..What do I do when I close my eyes the only thing I remember is Suyash trying to kiss me holding me and slapping me .It has become like Every second I recall that incident and I still feel so scared..What I want is not be a burden on anyone and how will they like me when I myself hate me..Why did I have to be there..I know it'll hurt you and everyone here  but without me around no one will have any danger..I'm tierd of all the negativity my family faced because of me.I've done nothing that'll make them feel proud of me..I've done everything possible for them to face all the hatred and humiliations .I've seen your girlfriend get angry on you for publically  holding my hand,I've heard people troll you for your bad choice and that's me, though Rakshan anna does not tell me I feel he's working more than he should and that's because of me I feel I'm over burdening him and everytime he is concerned of my safety and stuff which makes me feel I'm snatching his family time and even Varsha anni does not tell me anything about it.Parthiv anna he is taking a risk of putting me in a fun filled show though he knows I'm filled with negativity over the years,he even got into a fight with a few people for teasing me and commenting shit about me and ended up with injuries..Ashwin from the time he has come back I've not spent enough time with him ,I'm not that beautiful girl for Ashwin to fall in love with...five years ago he liked me but that des not mean I'll force him to love me when he returns..I've just hurt him ,I dont give him the affection he deserves ...In 3 years you all have given me love and bared me and that's enough I dont want anyone to put up with my stupidity or antics..Its enough..I've had enough..Enough of everything..Let's end all the confusions here.I need no one literally no one here..I wanted to end myself but I dont even have the guts to do that so it's better for everyone to forget me and continue their lives without any obstacles..And you Rahhh just tell me how many breakups did you go through just because of me..Be frank..I know you won't answer because I know it's many so you better dont say that I'm not an obstacle in your life.I'm just a problem creating person for everyone.