I was just kinda bored so, yea, here you go
I remember days of joy
Days where we'd be happy
And full of cheer
Not that those are gone
Not that they won't be back
I'm still waiting for the years
to go by.
But I don't feel like leaving the house
I don't feel like talking today
I don't feel like making friends
Or socialising
Perhaps I just won't leave my room
I could stay in all day and draw
or write
Or... try to keep my mind off things
Maybe I should stay in bed
no need to leave
Only disappointment is waiting outside
I could sleep
Escape into my dreams
Where me and my comfort characters laugh and hangout
Where pain is irrelevant
But no, you tell me to get up
Time to go
Time to live
Time to... see
See my friends break slowly every day
Watch them lose they're hope and joy
Watch them crack and break
While I stand here wishing to help them
But I can't
I promised
I promised my friends
and the demons in my head
Feels like weeks go by, before the bell rings
Then we go to class
We get locked up in a classroom
And be forced to do work
Perhaps I'll be crying
Perhaps I'll be hurting
But the teachers don't mind
They just keep working.
And the loop continues for the rest of the day
Watching, working, hurting.
Not like i need the help anyway, I'm fine
I'm fine.
I assure you I'm fine
Nothings wrong
I have the perfect life
Or maybe its not... perfect
Perhaps I wanna apologise
I made you worry
I made you stress
Please do not worry
I'll be quiet
Words only hurt
I'm Sorry. I'm so sorry.
I didn't mean to.
I wanna scream it at you
But I must stay quiet
Maybe this would help
Maybe I could fix it
I will fix it
I'll Help you
I'll help you i promise
I Will!...
But the last bell has rang,
And the day has ended.
I don't bother asking if you wanna hangout
i just walk out the door
Don't bother asking me if I'm okay
It's too late to talk about it anyway
So I head home, where i get forgot about
No "Are you okay" As i come in the door
No "welcome home"
No "you wanna talk about today?"
Not that I'd answer honestly
I just would brush it off
say "I'm fine"
Don't wanna worry you anyway
Don't need to anyway
Then I head back to my room
To lie down and think
And before i know it... the next day begins
and the loop starts all over again
YOU ARE READING
shitposts tbh
Fanfictionheres a bunch of short stories, some are stuff i wanted to put in other books, others are just concepts for books, its like a test, and if theres any you want me to actually turn into a book, I'll happily do so :v:
