.Your love is a lie. (Jai brooks)

13

(JAI'S P.O.V)

We got to their house and you can tell she hasn't been here yet. It's hard being back here, me and her have so many memories here. And now I'm here so nervous to see her, I'm hoping that she will come here sober with an open mind.

"Now we wait" Andrew said sitting on the couch.

"What if she's high?" I asked him.

"She will be, which means she will be angry to be honest" he replied. I nodded my head and focused on the TV.

It's been about three hour's sense we have gotten here and I can't think of anything but her. She said she was stopping by, did she change her mind did she get hurt? Andrew said she left last night so where did she stay she doesn't have much friends around here. She must know some people if she is getting these drugs. I don't want to imagine what they are like, if anyone has put a hand on her or touch her I will kill them. The thought of her getting hurt make my blood boil.

"She's here" Andrew said pointing out the window to the car light.

I watched her walk up to the door. She was stumbling and walking slowly. She opened the door and stepped into the house not noticing us sitting right here. Just like Andrew said her face was pale and eyes as dark as the night sky, he hair was a mess it was all over the place, and I could smell the pot from here. She's just standing there looking at the stair case, not moving taking short breaths, still not noticing us. I looked over to Andrew you could see the concern in his eyes I can only image what I look like.

"Karen" Andrew said quietly but loud enough for her to hear.

She moved her head slowly to look at him. Now that I have gotten a better look at her she almost looks like a Zombie. Soon her eyes left his and made their way to mine. I can't explain the feeling in my stomach I got the second our eye locked. She looked at me for a good minute and scratched her left arm.

"Whatever" she laughed her eyes still locked on mine; she soon looked away and made her way up the stairs.

I signaled to Andrew to say while I went after her, at first he want going for it but he gave in. I walked up the stairs slowing mentally preparing myself for what's to come. I got to her room and looked through the door; she was sitting on her bed. Once she heard me we locked eyes again, and all I can see is pain. I was about to speak but she cut me off before I could say anything.

"Do you want to know my favorite lie you ever told me?" she asked with no emotion in her voice.

"Karen I know what i di--"

"Do you want to know?" she said cutting me off again.

"Yea" I said quietly.

"My favorite lie you ever told me was when you said you loved me" she said looking me straight in the eyes.

"You think that was a lie" I said stepping closer to her. I expected her to move but she didn't. She just sat there on the edge of her bed never breaking eye contact with me.

"I know it was" the words came out could and slightly slurred.

I couldn't get any words out of my mouth. Of course I loved her that was the furthest thing from a lie. She has become my world my everything. I know my actions are not proving of the love I have for her. Although I know deep down she knows I love her.

"and you know what the shitty thing is jai?" she said braking me out of my daze tears forming in her eyes "its shitty because i really fucking love you" i watched as every tear rolled down her cheeks making her mascara fall with them. i caused this i caused all of this.