our concepts for our albums have become more soft but have meaning. we are getting more recognition but i still feel like the members that doesn't exist. some army's don't even recognise me as a member. i miss my parents a lot. seeing them through videos at my birthday is enough for me to cry now.
we won artist of the year.
we've all been working day and night on our upcoming albums and the new award has boosted all of our motivations. recently though more fans have started to see my talents. i try to be so cheerful and happy on stage; i want to be the hope for our fans. 'wings' took long to record and produce and now we work on the extended verison; 'you never walk alone'. i hope the new album can give motivation and hope to our fans. only a few more songs will be added to the album wings. the album will be released a few days before we start the 'wings' tour and my birthday but my birthday has never been anything special. we plan to perform all over the world and meet our fans.
at the billboard music awards our name was called; for top social artist. this year is to be busy just like every other year. i try to take each day as it comes and i try to block out the hate but it continues to manifest and take up my mind. my sleeping and eating habits have only worsened with time but my friendship with the other members has become more important to me.
our tour ends and now we work towardd releasing another album; 'love yourself;her'
as the album releases it gets no.7 on the billboard 200 albums chart; its the only one to get into top 10. i finally feel as if we have gained respect. 'DNA' gets the highest kpop song at no.67 on the hot 100.
we've been recognised worldwide. army is a growing family.
oct 31.
we finally announced our UNICEF Korea campaign; love myself. finally we can help army more. now with the campaign i plan to show a more happy and uplifting side of me. as an idol i have the power to change people and i want to use it for good so here i am. i talk to my parents a lot more now; they seem worried because i've started to have more of a split personality.
even i have noticed the split between jung hoseok and j-hope.
jhorse
untalented
if jhorse had left or didn't even debut the band would be a lot better
and even with all the recognition the hate continues to grow and thrive in my mind. for some reason i can't out run it. i try to not think about it but it haunts me like a ghost at night. i don't think people should invest so much time on us or more specifically me. it's just a waste like they all say i'm nothing special. i do nothing for the group; support them not me.
more remixes drop and the new 'mic drop' remix with Steve Aoki and Desiigner got our highest ranking song af no.28. we dont deserve it but it feels nice to actually achieve something. lately i've felt like my career is on pause, a break. i haven't achieved anything lately. why we were the most tweet about celebrity of the year i do not know.
being an idol isn't all sunshine and rainbow.
the saesangs scare me
YOU ARE READING
my split
Fanfictionfrom jhopes perspective of being in the spotlight i got some inspo for this from the story faded|| kim sunoo so go read that and give it some love
