year end came, so did graduation.
after months, you forgot that i'm moving away from daegu. we continued like normal.
at the end of the day, i dreaded having to spend time with you at the park. afterall, i'm moving away whether we like it or not. i still haven't gotten the courage to say those words after all that i've been through with you.
you wanted to buy my favourite ice-cream but i managed to get you to settle down first. i needed to say this.
"taehyung-ah, let's break up," i finally got it out of my chest.
there is a lump in my throat that i can't get rid of. the silence was deafening.
"you still don't believe in me, eunbi?" you asked me with teary eyes.
"i'm sorry taehyung," i squeezed your hand one last time and stood up from the bench.
you called after me. i stopped in my tracks, tears were threatening to come out. i got the courage to not turn around and walked forward. until an arm embraced me from the back.
"what am i doing wrong? what is it that i have to do to make you stay with me? even if it means we have to physically be apart?" you asked me.
i released your arms from my body. breaking into a smile, i managed to whisper, 'nothing babe, you did your best. i still dont believe in love after what happened,' i released your hands and walked away, tears now falling.
you're making it harder for me, please. i don't want you to be with me. i am flawed.
YOU ARE READING
thank you, goodbye.
Fanfictionmonologue of what happened before, during and after. recorded by hwang eun-bi, point of view.
