How Did We Get Here?

5.

I wake up to birds chirping, a dim light coming through the window. I turn around to find an empty bed. Maybe I was dreaming? Maybe I slept alone the whole night and I was just fantasizing about Maya.

As I exhale deeply, Maya opens the door and smiles.

"Did you sleep well? I hope last night wasn't weird for you" She says as she hands me a cup of tea.

"Oh, uhm last night?" I said before taking the cup tea.

So last night was real and she did reject me? Well now I just feel horrible.

"No, last night wasn't weird at all. Was it weird for you?" I continued without making eye contact.

"Last night was fine for me, great actually. I am glad you are spending the weekend with me. I made breakfast" Maya says whilst pointing to the kitchen.

So first I give myself to her, she rejects me and makes me breakfast? Now I know I am very young and she's 7 years my senior, but I'm not sure this is how things are suppose to go.

"Oh, that's very kind of you. I'll take a quick shower and I'll be right out Maya" I say as I'm walking to the bathroom.

I let the cold water run down my back for atleast 5 minutes as I falsely sing

Soft kitty
Warm kitty
Little ball of fur
Happy kitty
Sleepy kitty
Purr
Purr
Purr

I sing this whenever I am anxious. I hear the bathroom door open up.

"Don't turn around!!" Maya screams

I look straight forward

"Uhm, I want to get in the shower with you, but I am going to close the curtains and turn off the lights." Maya says anxiously

I blank out, my heart is rushing and I can feel myself getting wet or is it just the water? Oh God, what is happening to me?

Maya clears her throat "So can I? Can I join you?"

I open the shower door without turning around and extend my hand.

"Yes Maya, you may" I replied

I couldn't see her undress, but I could hear her blouse dropping on the floor. Followed by her skirt unzipping.
She takes my hand and stands behind me.

Maya whispers into my ear "I want to run my fingers through your wet curls and watch how the water falls down your nipples down to your stomach"

I let out a soft moan before asking "Can I kiss you? Can I turn around and kiss you?"