How Did We Get Here?

4.

I held back moans, but the pleasure of kissing her was unbearable. Maya gets on top of me and bites my neck, she continues to kiss my collarbone and traces her tongue to my right earlobe. The sound of her breathing sends chills through my body.

I could feel myself getting wet and I moan softly.
She takes my shirt off and slowly slides down my underwear. She traces her tongue down my breast and grabs the other one with her hand. Her tongue twirls around my nipple right before she starts sucking on it.

My mind went blank, the only thought of mine was how badly I wanted to bite her lips, no her neck, no her breast. Oh God I could not make up my mind I just wanted to taste her.

She kissed my breast and slowly made her way down to my stomach, every kiss exactly 1 inch below the other one. She reached my hips and bit both sides before kissing my inner thighs. Another moan left my mouth, right before she opened my legs and traced her tongue up and down my wetcore. With her two fingers she opened me like a flower unfolding and drove her tongue into me.

She kissed and licked me, it felt like hours. Pulling my body down into her face. I couldn't help but push her face deeper into me, in the hopes to feel more of her.

Right before I feel myself about to climax, I think about her boyfriend. I get distracted and I judge myself for allowing her to touch me in ways I never thought I could be. I judged myself so much at the thought of only being a warm body for her. 

I try to stop my mind, but as soon as I try to touch her, she stops me. And makes it clear she doesn't want me to touch her.

My heartached and I felt disgusted and used. I'd never felt that way before. I was naked and ashamed of myself.

I was a flower unfolding in her hands only for her to reject my touch.

My eyes started watering and I could feel my first tear rolling down my cheek. I was filled with so many emotions, but all I could express was salted water.

A few tears rolled down, rolled over to my right side and watched the bedroom wall and I convinced myself this was a dream.