The Missing Lyric (Nemi)

Chapter 30

Nick

Demi crying after we had sex freaked me out. It was so incredible making love to her & feeling so close to her, then she started crying, shattering all of my hopes that this intimate encounter could be the start of something. As I'm at an all time low, after being at an all time high, Demi shocks me by telling me she's in love with me. I can't even explain the way I felt, hearing her say that to me. I was in shock, to say the least. My heart was beating so fast in my chest, I didn't think there was any way Demi couldn't hear it. We were lying so close, though, I thought she could feel it beating against her.

I couldn't even speak for minutes after she said we shouldn't mess things up with feelings. It was as if she thought that was what I was going to say. I wanted to laugh, I was so excited. I wanted to cry or yell from the window that I was the happiest guy on the planet. I had dreamed of Demi telling me she loved me for months now & she finally did & I couldn't form words. I stared into her eyes, trying to get enough courage to say that I loved her back, but that's not what came out. Maybe I thought this moment needed some humor or maybe I really did think us loving each other as a husband & wife should, would indeed complicate things & that's why I said it. "This does complicate things."

She didn't say anything after I said it. She just stared at me, looking like she might burst into tears. Her head nodded, slightly as her eyes closed & then I let out a short laugh, making her eyes pop open. "Complicated is funny?" She asked, sounding irritated.

I was still smiling as I shook my head. "No, but complicated can be amazing. I always liked complicated." I shrugged as I smirked & Demi stared at me, her mouth hanging open. I realized I hadn't told her, yet, that I felt the same way. I laid all the way down, tucking my arm under my head as I faced her. "Demi. I'm in love with you, too." I said, in a quiet voice & she just kept staring, blinking rapidly. "On our wedding day, I meant every word I said & every single thing I did. I wasn't pretending at all that entire day."

Demi turned her body so she was facing me, completely & she put her wrist under her cheek. Her smile was enormous, her eyes twinkling & I felt myself fall more in love with her. "You're not messing with me, are you?" Her eyes narrowed a little & I laughed out loud, shaking my head. "Good. Because I wasn't pretending on our wedding day either." She bit her lip & looked down at my mouth. My hand went to her waist & I pulled her toward me, our bare skin touching in some places. "Now what?" She whispered her question, as her eyes came up to look into mine again.

"Now.... we live happily ever after." I said, seriously. "And we plan our first date."

Demi giggled. "Wow. We are fucking backwards, aren't we?" Demi started laughing & I just looked at her with a confused expression on my face. "We lose our virginity. We have a baby. We get married. We fall in love. Then we go on a first date. We did it all backwards." She laughed so hard, she was silent & I had to join her.

"Holy shit. You're right." I laughed along with her, shaking my head. "We did it all fucking backwards. What the fuck is wrong with us?"

"We must like to do things different." She replied, finally, her laughter subsiding.

I stopped laughing & stared at her face, until she looked at me, a soft smile on her face. "But, you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way." I said in a quiet voice, then put my lips to hers. "I'm glad we fell in love like this. If it had happened another way, we might not have stayed in love or we might not have been able to adopt Lyric."

"We haven't adopted her yet." Demi said, her voice suddenly sad.

"But we will." I replied in a firm voice.