"POKER HEARTED" ✿A Jikook & Vhope Angst✿✔️

-: 111. The Good news!

Author's P.O.V:-

Suho shakes off his hand from Sehun & says, "I don't want to, my heart...it's been torn apart & all that I have now is just a shell, you know what I felt that day when you are explaining our story to Jungkook, you just finished all our childhood memories in a line saying 'Suho used to follow me'... is that all you remember? Don't you remember how you approached me a kid who has no friends? Don't you remember how you asked me to be your friend? Don't you remember how you made me promise to be your friend forever? Don't you remember *sobs* the days we spent happily together until one day when you get to know that I am Kevin's son?

You suddenly disappeared making me alone again, to forget you I became a nerd but couldn't & my friendship for you grown into love as I grew up,

And when I entered the university, I saw you happily talking with your friends, do you know how much happy I felt when I saw you? I ran towards you in hopes that you who made the promise to be friends forever will embrace me by seeing me after a long time? But what you did? You threw me away insulted me saying that I am stalking you, do you even know what I felt at that moment? You let your friends bully me,"

"I...don't" Sehun starts but stops when Suho shows his hand signaling him to stop while wiping his tears,

"Don't even try to say that you don't know how your friends bullied me, I saw *sobs* I s-saw you laughing while I was being bullied & hurt, and that was the only reason I stopped resisting, I wanted to see the smile on your face so I thought it's okay for me to get hurt if it makes you smile,...I am foolish right?

And when I saw you eagerly trying to gain the attention of Luhan, and when I get to know you love him who loves some other man, do you know how I felt? All those days I kept my love for you inside cause you said you hate gays & spat on me for being gay but you just went & loved another man, my heart was broken into pieces, that day I understood you don't hate gays but just me *sobs*

And after I tried to stop you from going to the party when I know you are going to be set up, even after I screamed my lungs out telling you that they are planning to set you up & Luhan, you didn't believe me & as always you ignored me like a bug,

But then after Luhan disappeared from the university you came to me yelling it's my fault? And the irony is that after Luhan's death you again came to me saying that it's all my fault when you know the reason, I only heard it the day you told Jungkook, I wanted to ask you where was my fault? that day the pieces which are shattered before are broken into more small pieces,

Here, in my heart I felt those sharp things piercing me, you say I stalked you? When all that I did was to protect you, my father who sent men to spy you & kill you if you were the spy, I followed you everywhere, so those men won't do anything to you in my presence, even after you hurt me like that my heart doesn't want to see you hurt, it's so stupid cause this heart still loves you...

But now I don't want anything in return from you, cause that day you asked me to get that device I prepared myself to die, but God is unfair he didn't let me die & I saw you looking worried for me, that moment when you scolded me worrying about me is the best moment of my life, I never saw up till then someone worrying about me, it's enough, that moment is enough for me to live, I don't need anything from you now,

So Sehun, let me go now, I want to live  for myself from now on, I don't want to live earning for just a look of affection all my life, I won't bother you anymore so you can live happily without me stalking you everywhere which you hate the most!" Suho says giving one last genuine smile to Sehun,