Vexatious || Ateez J.WY

chapter 8.

sooyoung lousily stepped in her room, taking out her phone before tossing her purse somewhere. she moved the items on her desk and turn the lamp on.

"okay, okay. just say what you wanna say." she whispered to herself.

she pressed on the contact number that was recently added on her device. "fuck, i hate apologizing."

the girl stared at the number, biting on her nails while her leg couldn't stop bouncing.

she finally gathered enough courage to tap on the voice record button as she cleared her throat, preparing for the message she was about to say.

"i know you hate me right now, but please hear me out." she figures the boy would recognize her voice and instantly block her.

"i'm sorry." she breathes out. "i'm sorry for everything. i wanted to atleast have the decency to say it in person, but i don't think you're ever going to talk to me."

sooyoung winces, noticing how it seems like she was implying it was his fault. "and i don't blame you. i was immature and a jackass, and made you go through things you didn't deserve." she pauses as she swallowed nervously.

"and i know i'm selfish for wanting to face you after everything i did, but i just wanted you to hear it from me." running out of words to say and feeling as if it wasn't enough, she simply said what she wanted to say.

"you were the first person who genuinely cared about me. not my money or my status, just... me as a person." after pursing her lips due to the feeling of dehydration, she continued, "which must have been really hard, and i never really got to say thank you for that."

sighing deeply in disappointment, she silently groaned. "god, i'm talking about me again. great job, sooyoung."

she pressed on the button which should have stopped and deleted the recording.

to her surprise, her screen showed that she already sent the message. not believing she made a huge mistake, she pulled the device closer to her wide eyes which only confirmed that she had indeed sent it.

"shit!" she yelped, throwing her phone away from shock. "why? just why?"

the girl puffed, repeatingly letting air in her lungs to not panic. just play it cool.

obnoxiously clearing her throat as she grabbed the device, she recorded another message. "anyway, yeah. i really don't care if you accept it or not."

wanting this torture to end, she concluded, "i just wanted you to know i'm truly sorry and that, uhm," she contemplated but officially finished her sentence, "you were one of the best things that happened to me."

she successfully sent it and considered it a great achievement. "you did it, soo."

her face, then, sulked as realizes how much pride she threw away. she wanted to slap herself, but not wanting to ruin her face, she simply grabbed her hair and squirmed on her mattress.

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sooyoung walked through the halls where the lockers were located. san and yunho were already in their classrooms and minjee had just texted her that she was going to be late.

"fresh meat." an infuriating call was heard from behind. "do you think you got off the hook?"

the girl slowly turned around, already annoyed as it is. it was joonsoo with a couple other guys and another girl who looked like she smashed a cake on her face.

she wanted to ignore and walk away from them, but she only got pushed back when she tried.

"you still owe me." joonsoo taunted. "you broke my pen, remember?"