A Fighter's Sigh

I'm sorry

That's all I can say: "I'm sorry"
Every heart beat of my broken heart and my drowning soul is saying:
"I'm sorry"
Why? Sigh...is time to tell you..
I did all this for you.
I wanted all of you so I tried to walk your path.
I dreamed of a day which we are together.
Without goodbyes.
Without heart breaks.
Without lies.
Without painkillers.
Without any harm.
But I can't accomplish that...
Cause I'm made out of excuses.
Builded from lies.
And crafted attached to the nothing.
I can see how the others live their lives and I thought I was like them but no.
I can hear the goals of my friends and I thought I could be like them but no.
.........
I can see my life's passing away and I can't do something to stop it...
Time doesn't wait for us, you know?
But, hey!
You aren't the one who's living to himself.
Dreaming alive.
Making songs and finding songs so I can finally know how I feel.
Sigh...
I can't find the song...
I don't know what I feel...
I will not follow you this time...
I'm sorry...
The truth is...
I don't know what is the truth anymore...
I'm sorry...