A Fighter's Sigh

Should I stay or go?

Should I stay?
Or should I go?
Should I fight?
Or just give up?
You are my medicine,
But I got addicted.
You know my insides,
My true self.
And I can see the dark within you.
You are the blood in my veins,
And the cells in my body.
Even though we are just friends
I've already built a future of two.
But who I'm lying to?
Just to me.
All I wanted...all I asked...
Is was attention...
And love...
You came, and left.
You gave, and take.
Three years ago I didn't had the courage to fight for you.
Now...
Now I've to accept that life doesn't gives the same person twice.
There's something I'm missing.
I just can't get it.
We are friends but I feel like the magic is growing.
Even though you are with him...
I saw your monsters...and you saw mines.
...
Did you looked back that night?
Did you wanted to hug me once more?
Did you ever wanted to say goodbye?
Cause the only monsters you haven't met are those memories and questions.
We were too young to understand.
And we parted away too fast...
I wish I could start all over again.
Sadly, that isn't possible.
So I'll just see how I ruin my heart.
Cuz you aren't the one I've to blame.
I'll blame myself for not being enough.
Why I feel like this?
Why when I know you more and more I feel you're miles away?
Yesterday I cried because of this.
Because of you.
Because of us.
But I've to let you go...
I've to...
Just tell me, please...
Should I stay or go?
Should I fight for you one more time?
Should I start dreaming again?
Should I believe in love again?
Should I wait for you?