THE DIARY

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- "The party is over! Out, up!" Draco let everyone out, he was furious.

Together with Cedric I went to the front door to greet him.
- "If you need me, you know where to find me, so I'm here next door. Goodnight Madame."
- "I would come with you right now, believe me. But don't worry, now I'm going straight to my room. Goodnight Monsieur. "I closed the door and stood there for a few seconds,without wanting to turn around.
I took a deep breath and found the courage. I headed to my room.
On the way Draco stared at me all the time, but luckily he didn't follow me, I didn't want to arguing and above all I would not have known what to tell him.

POV DRACO.
Was she really pretending nothing happened?
I waited for everyone to go to their dorm to talk to Tom I had to clear this up situation. - "Draco has been staring at me for three hours, you want to tell me something? "he preceded me.
- "What went into your brain?
Are you with the half-bloods now? "

Of course I couldn't tell him the truth, but I needed to figure out if Tom liked Helena.
- "It's just a game Draco, you know that rules are rules." he said to me as he arranged the glasses used during the party.
- "You make the rules, you might as well not do it."
- "Why are you having all these problems?Is there something you have to tell me? "
he turned to me. -" We've always teased her and now do you kiss her in front of everyone? "
-" I asked you a question Draco, is there something do you have to tell me? "

Tom came face to face with me.
It was like he was mad at me, like he knew something ..
But I hadn't told them anything and Helena had told me they hadn't spoken ..

- "No Tom, what should I tell you?" I lied, even though I was having doubts about Helena.
Had she told me the truth?
- "I was asking ... I'm going to sleep."
Tom was weird, too weird ..
I just had to talk to Helena. I would have done it tomorrow, otherwise Tom would have understood.

POV HELENA.
It's late at night and I toss and turn on the bed. I can not sleep.

I turn on the lamp and take my diary from the bedside table

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I turn on the lamp and take my diary from the bedside table.
I needed to write, to let off steam, to try to clear my mind of thoughts.

Today Cedric jokingly told me:
"Are you falling in love with Draco?" The first thing that came to my mind was: NO! I've never been in a relationship.
I don't know what kind of conversations we normally have, I don't know how it feels, I don't know how we love and if we ever truly love in our whole miserable life.
I only knew his language, his jealousy, his eyes mine, his hands on my body. I don't know if it's love ..
But how do I explain that my mind turns off when I'm with him?
How do I explain the blood that boils when I see him with someone else? It's strange for me to think about Draco and say "I love him",but if it wasn't love, what was it?
If it's love, do you react with revenge?
Does jealousy lead you to this?
I saw him kiss Astoria and I don't know why, I don't feel guilty about having to kiss Tom, on the contrary… I wanted him to see us.
For a moment I thought "man, now you'll understand how it feels", but you forgot the important part.
You kissed Tom, not just anyone ..
For me, he wasn't just anybody ..
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Sunday, Hours: 8:00.
Tonight I will have slept a maximum of 3 hours, and I'm already awake, well ..
Ready for this long day.
I have absolutely no desire to meet anyone today, neither Tom, not Draco not Astoria, it's strange to think but .. seeing her would have hurt me.
I wash my face, my teeth, take a shower, put on something comfortable and I'm ready to head to the great room to eat something, at least so if I go soon no one will see me.
I opened the door and saw him in front of me.
It almost took a hit when he saw me. - "Were you going somewhere?" I think he had been there for a while but he was waiting for the right moment to knock.
- "What are you doing here Draco?"
- "What am I doing here?
I think we have to talk after yesterday right? "He was very angry but whispered to not wake anyone up.
- "And why did you come here at this hour? So as not to be seen by Astoria?"
- "I really couldn't sleep bitch!" - "Ah here am I the bitch now ?!"

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