Hitman |n.h|

57

Okay loves,please listen to the song on the side as you read,it will make everything even more...emotional.Get ready for this weyhey.

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My eyes shoot open and I honestly start to panic.

Did I really see who I think I saw?

Do I have to take more meds?

I slowly blink and turn my head to my left,to see that it is almost night out,the window cracked slightly open.

I then turn to my right,and I really know that I've lost it.

Niall sat in a chair by my bed,a book in his hand and glasses on his face.The lamp was turned on,giving him light so he could see the pages.His legs were up on an ottoman,as he quietly scanned the words inside the book.

I don't say anything,just admire.Watch.

He looks older,with a hint of facial scruff,his hair a mess;he looked more muscular than before,making me trail my gaze along his arms coming out from his fitted white tee shirt.

I swallow,and finally look at his eyes.

He has a subtle smirk on his face,and from what I currently work as,that is a sign of knowing or wanting something.

"You look as beautiful as I remember you as," he says lowly,not moving his eyes from the pages.

I freeze and die inside.All over again.

"You're not real.You're dead," I say lowly.

"A lot of people wish,but,sadly,no." He chuckles and closes the book,sitting up and looking at me finally.

I let the few tears escape my eyes,as I look him over.

"You're dead,Niall.Leave me alone," I say almost to myself,like I'm crazy.

I am though.

I'm seeing my dead ex-boyfriend for crying out loud.

"Amber,just listen to me," he cooes and I sit up at the speed of light.

"Where is Collin? Where is he?" I ask quickly,my head hurts a bit but I push it aside.Ive had plenty worse.

"Amber,wait a second-"

"My son-Where is my baby?" I ask loudly and he quickly takes my face in his hands and I do not know how to respond,because he was touching me.

He is warm.

I can feel him.

He isnt dead,Amber.

He's alive.

I gently grab his hand that is nestled on my face,looking in his eyes.

"Yeah,come back to me.There you go," he whispers softly and cracks a smile.

"Niall? N-How?" I start but he shushes me and tells me to sit back.

"I will explain everything later," he says,sitting besides me.

"I want to know a few basic things before anything,though," he starts and knits his eyebrows together.

I grab his hand,and touch his chest,still not coming to terms that he is here and alive and well.Just hearing his voice is overwhelming me.

He laughs lightly and me and tugs me close.

"Were are you living at now?"

"New York," I whisper,burying my face into the crook of his neck,I feel him smile against me and I shift my eyes to look.

"How old are you?"

"How old are you,pervert?" I spit back and immediately have a flashback to when we first met.I instantly smile and wait for him to respond.

"Its a question,just answer it," he says playfully.

"I'm 27.How about you?"

"M'29."

I beam and lay my head on his lap,looking up at him.

"What's your favorite month?" He asks softly,running his hand through my hair.

"April." I say and close my eyes.

"I like it short," he says,referring to my hair and I smile.

"Do you work?" He asks and I sigh.

"Yeah. I'm a criminal psychologist.I graduated first in my class at NYU."

He laughs happily and its the sweetest thing I have ever heard.

"Im so proud of you.Its unbelievable."

I sit up and look at him,in the dim light and give a small smile.

"Why did you leave me?" I ask timidly,lookimg down for a second.

He lifts my chin up and shakes his head.

"Lets talk about this later,okay?"

I nod slightly and turn my face to the door,where I can hear laughing from downstairs.

"One more thing," he whispers and sighs,bitting down on his lip.

He looks over at me and his demeanor softens.

"Is Collin mine?"

I look at him for a moment and sigh.

I lean my head back on the wall.

"After Zayn dropped me off with Marina,I literally thought I couldn't live again.I was feeling off for a while,and Marina finally persuaded me to see her doctor.So I did,and thats when I found out...I was pregnant.And right then,I knew,he was going to have no father.That killed me." I say and swallow the lump in my throat.

I look at him as he wears a facade,not giving away his emotions.

"And it's completely okay if you dont want to be apart of Collin's life because he is perfectly fine without a father-" I start but he cuts me off.

"Hey,hey.Thats not why I asked.I just,I wanted to know." He says and smiles,leaning his forehead on mine.

"I'm over the moon.Don't let my face fool you."

I melt into him,how could I not?

After almost 7 years,and he is here.

"He looks like me," he mumbles and I smile,eyes closed.

"He's got your eyes,and stubborn attitude."

"Nah,he gets that trait from you."

We laugh a little and he pushes hair behind my ear.

"I love you," he breathes and leans in,sealing a kiss that was long overdue.

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A/N

UHM.WOAH.

Haha yeah pretty short update bc I felt that #Namber shippers needed their own chappie and all but another update soon woop :) xx

- A ♡