•Sapnap's Sister• {Dream x Fem!Reader} •DISCONTINUED!!!•

*Feelings*

•Sapnaps Sister•
(Dream x Reader)
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HUGE TW!!! DESCRIPTIVE SELF HARM!!!!

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Dreams POV
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I Feel Kinda Bad For Y/N Because I've Been Pushing Her Away Non-Stop To Talk To George And Haven't Really Noticed, But Now Every Time I Try To Talk To Her She Just Doesn't Listen So I Go Back To Talking To George.

"Hey Y/N.."

"What..?"

"I Just Wanted To Say Sorry For Being Distant But I Have A Good Excuse"

"Go For It."

"I've Known George Almost My Entire Life And Haven't Ever Seen Him In Person And We Only Just Met Over The Phone.."

"Wow. That's Your Excuse? Because You've Known Him Longer But Won't Even Talk To Me Anymore? You don't even look my way! Am I Just Not Relevant?!"

"Woahh Chill Y/N" I Says As I Puts My Hands Up In Defence. Probably Shouldn't Have Come Off That Aggressive.

"Ok Listen I'm Sorry. I Just.."

"You Just What Clay? Because It's Not Looking So Good For You Right Now."

"Ok Calm Down And We Can Talk Later.." I Walk Away From The Situation Because I Really Don't Want To Fight I Just Want To Talk It Out..

Y/N POV
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Is He Serious?! He Can't Be. This Is Ridiculous!

He Want Me To Calm Down After What He Just Said To Me Then Told Me To Calm Tf Down?!

Who Does He Think He Is?!

I Take A Deep Breath And Pause For A Moment Before Calling Nick.

*Riiing Riiiiiing Riiing*

Come On Pick Up!!

*Riiing* *Your Call Has Been Forward To An Automated Voice Messaging Syst-*

I Hang Up And Try One More Time. He's Probably Busy With Karl (A/N If You Know What I Mean 😅)

"Whatever." I Say Under My Breath

Dreams pov

I Understand i've been distant and all but that's also her fault too. and she's been hanging around Karl a lot. Mind as well go date him. Whatever, I invited wilbur to come over here because vidcon is coming up, and he is going to bring tommy and tubbo. Ranboo sadly couldn't make it but its most of the smp members. Fundy is also going to come with niki. I need to figure out my feelings, I get nervous around George, he makes me feel happy, while i love y/n but we just keep fighting. I go back to my room and just take a nap.

Y/n pov

I'm just going to keep giving him space. We need to talk it out if we want this trip to go well but so far it's not. After all, we don't really know each other like he has known my brother for years. We have known each other for a few months. This was bound to happen. I just mess up everything good that happens. Every relationship I have, platonically or not, I always mess it up.

I go grab my scissors and lock myself in the bathroom. I look at my arms and see my scars. They aren't noticeable unless you actually look. Five months clean down the drain. I cut once hoping to feel regret and pain, but no. It feels good. It feels like I deserve it. I cut again but this time deep, I go again and again and again. I do the same on the other arm. I drop the scissors and hear a loud 'clink' on the floor, then close my eyes and I feel the blood roll down my arms and it feels so good. The burning sensation feels addicting.

I Grit My Teeth In Pain And Squint My Eyes So Hard That They Hurt, And Feel Soft Tears Slowly Roll Down My Cheeks. I Feel Empty. I Feel Like I've Never Felt Before.

I Snap Back Into Reality And Slam Open My Eyes. I Need More.

I can't believe I'm going to do this. I clean up my arms and roll down my pants below my thigh. I grab my scissors again and start cutting my hip down to my thigh.

i hear a knock at the door and scared the shit out of me. Because i jumped this caused me to cut deeper than i ever have. This one hurt so fucking bad. "y-Yeah?!" Shit. my voice is shakey. "Hey you ok?" its alex. "Um Yeah Im fine!" i clear my throat trying to be convincing. "If you say so." I hear him walk away and look down. Holly shit. I have so many cuts. I count them in total. 259 cuts total. fuck. I go to grab toilet paper to see there is none. I grab the towel hanging on the rack and dab it on my arms to clean up the blood. After a couple of dabs I rinse the towel under warm water. "Y/n you ok?" I hear Karl ask. shit. I can't lie to him. "Yeah i just need to calm down. i need a minute!" might as well tell him part of the truth. "Y/n open the door." i ignore him and continue cleaning up. "Y/n open the goddamn door!" This time is alex. "I just need a minute!" i snap. "It's fine, just give her a sec. she'll come out." I heard Karl say. It's muffled but I'm able to make it out from all the noise I'm making. I see karls shadow go away but one stays. I see it move to the side assuming they left.

I continue and realize blood is all over the place. "shit" I say under my breath. I continued cleaning up and my arms luckily stopped bleeding, I now have to deal with my thighs. I rinse the towl again and dab it on my thigh. "Son of a Bitch!'' I say through gritted teeth. That one cut stings so fucking bad! I manage to block out the pain and clean it. Now it's bleeding only a little bit. They look like scratches for now. So I fix my clothing, wrap up the towel, and hide my scissors in the towel. I keep the towel over my arms and open the door to be met face to face with alex.

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