"What do you want, Nai? I don't want you to change your answer if you hear mine"
I held my breath
"I don't..."
I bit my lip and looked down onto my lap
"I asked first" I faced my whole body at him, and he looked caught off guard. "I asked you first on what you wanted, what you wanted out of this"
He sighed
"I would never want to do anything to hurt you, or loose this friendship, and I am afraid that if we take this to the next step I will loose you..."
I blinked a few times
"Look Nai, I personally don't think I am ready for another relationship. You know how the last one ended, and I don't think... I don't think I can handle it again" I saw him gulp heavily, and looked off into the distance. "I don't think I can handle loosing you" He paused and then continued
"I don't think I want to risk that for my own sanity"
