should we? | Merlex

part 3

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"Mer, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to ruin your chances with McWidow."

"It's fine, Alex. I just don't understand. Our relationship has been strictly platonic and now I feel it's changed."

"It doesn't have to. I promise. I love you. Come here." I tell her, bringing her in for a hug. "Let's get drunk."

Meredith's POV

After Alex and I had countless shots of tequila, we were laughing uncontrollably about anything and everything.

"Riggs really made me, one woman he loves, preform a surgery for his ex-fiance, who is now his fiance again who he also loves. I mean who does that Alex?" I slur, while we both start laughing. "I freakin' made her abdominal wall!" I slap his shoulder as we both start laughing even more. 

"Riggs never deserved you." Alex slurred.

"Neither did Jo." I reply, getting more serious. I gazed in his eyes for awhile, while he was rambling about a surgery he did today. He met my gaze and stopped talking. I looked away as it was getting too serious. I take another shot. 

"You know, Mer. I never proposed a third time." He slurs.

"What? Why'd you break up with her, then?"

"Well you know." He starts laughing. "I realized that I was in love with this girl that I've known for like ever. "

Alex is in love with someone? I'm too drunk for this. 

The next morning...

I wake up with a pounding headache and look at Alex who's still asleep. The sun was just rising, so the sun was blaring through my window. 

"Alex." I whisper. He doesn't move so I yell, "Alex." 

He falls out of bed. "Mer!" He screams. "Ugh, we drank too much." 

The memories of last night start coming back to me. Drinking, talking about Riggs, Jo, more drinking, and even more drinking. We get ready for work, feed my kids, and drive the the hospital.

As we walk into the hospital, Alex starts staring at me. "What?" I ask him.

"Nothing." He replies. So I give him my 'you didn't convince me' face. "I-uh. I was just wondering what was going to happen to you and Hayes."

"Nothing. If he can't trust me and my best friend together as just friends, there's not going to be a relationship there." As I say the words, I can't help but wonder if I believe that we're just friends. No that's a lie. We are just friends, but do I think of him as just my best friend? I can't think of him as more than that because we're each others person. It won't work. 

I stop walking as I remember something else that happened last night. Alex said he was in love with someone else. He never told me who, but it kind of stabbed me. That's definitely not the feeling I expected to feel. 

"Mer?" You coming?" He asks me. I nod. 

Alex's POV

After our shift

"So, Alex. Last night I remember a conversation we had about someone who you have a crush on." Mer explains. I immediately start to blush. Why couldn't drunk me just shut up? Did I tell her who? Please tell me that I didn't confess that I'm in love with her while I was drunk. "Tell me who."

"Mer, this feels like high school." I tell her, trying to dodge the question.

"Don't ignore the question." She knows me too well. 

"I uh-"

"Aw, Alex is it a man? Is that why you're so scared to tell me?"

"Mer! It's a woman."

"Because that would be okay. You can tell me I'm your best friend-"

I cut her off and smash my lips onto hers. I've wanted to know what they tasted like since the moment I laid eyes on her over 10 years ago. I shoved down my feelings when she got with Shepherd but they were always lingering. And I don't know, I just-

Mer deepens the kiss as if she'd longed for it as well. When we finally have to part because we need air the only word I can say is, "Wow."

We gaze in each others eyes for what feels like hours when the attending's lounge door opens. We put space between us and then look to see who walked in.

"I'm back!" We here the voice yell.

"Cristina?" Alex and I say at the same time.