KEHNE KO HUMSAFAR -2

Getting detached

The words that came out of his mouth were sweet as honey but were hurting her like poison.
Sid- kya hua ?
Sana- wo mujhe jaana hai . . .
Sid- kahan ?
Sana- Aap apne kaam se kaam rakhe na , aapko kya mein kya kar rahi hun or kyu kar rahi hun.
She got out of Sidharth's hold and left the room while Sidharth was just looking at her in shock, how could she be like that ? She never even talks but today she yelled. His level of shock was to another level. The moment he gained his senses back she was gone , but where ? his mind mocked .

He left his room to look for her , he somewhere had an idea about her whereabouts , Shehnaaz was sitting on the garden bench , while it was drizzling , the tiny drops of water falling on her was giving her some nice feeling , cold water trying calm her inner fire about her life, fire that she knew could burn everything around her and will hurt her as well.
Sidharth saw her getting little drench in the drizzle he ran to her and picked her up his arms and started to walk towards his room.
Sid- have you gone crazy or what ? Baarish mein kyu bheegne chali gayi thi ? Bhul gayi ho to yaad dila dun fever hai tumko.
Shehnaaz just looked at him , her hands were around his neck , holding her hands together trying not to fall.
To be honest she didn't trust Sidharth anymore , she was afraid that he might drop her on the floor and she might get hurt.
They came back to the room , and Sidharth made her stand in front of the bathroom door.
Sid- go take a shower or you will get more sick.
Sana- mein kapde le lun ...
Sid- mein deta hun tum ander jao.
Sana- per
Sid- maine kaha na ? ( his voice raised a bit)
Shehnaaz just went in and locked the door.
Sidharth went to the closet and found only his belongings. He thought for a while and remembered how she still keeps her stuff in the suitcase as he didn't allow her to use any of the things.
He was feeling more and more guilt every time something or the other reminded him of how he has been so rude to her.
He took some clothes of her out not matching it with the correct thing.
Sid- yeh lo shehnaaz ...
She opened the door and looked at the clothes in his hand and then looked at him.
Sana- yeh wo
Sid- Kya hua hai ? Jao pehno isko !
Sana- per mein do jeans kaise pehen sakti hun ? Aap top bhi nahi laaye ...
Sid- oh 😬! Mein kuch leke aata hun ruko !
He again went to her suitcase and took out a blouse , and kept the other jeans back.
Sana- aap rukiye mein le lungi khudh hi , jeans ke saath saree ka blouse ? Pata nahi aapki girlfriend kaise jhelti hai aapko !
Saying so she took out a night suit and walked back into the restroom and closed the door. While Sidharth looked at her retreating figure.
Shehnaaz's POV
ab mujhe bura nahi lagta hai ki unke life mein koi or hai. kya karun dheeme dheeme adat ho jaati hai , kyuki hum har cheese se samjhota jo kar lete hai , shayad se hum ladkiyon mein yeh inbuilt hi hota hai , adjust karna, matlab hume sikhana nahi padta hai , or agar kisi ladki ko adjust karna nahi aata ho to usse saaf shabdon mein keh diya jaata hai , "Are bhai thoda adjust karna seekho , sasural jaake kya karogi nahi to?" yeh baat kassh koi apne aap ko samjhata , jab bahu ghar laate ho to thodi adjustment khudh bhi kar lo lekin nahi sirf uss ladki se hi kahenge , mein yaha koi feminism ka morcha nahi laga rahi bus mein ek general baat kar rahi hun , mujhse to   1 mahine shaadi ke kisi ne mere pucha hi nahi. Na hi mere maa papa ne nahi Sidharth ke family ne.
Sidharth ki to baat hi nahi kar sakte iss matter per.
Shaadi ke ek mahine baad aaj jab Sidharth mujhse kuch kehete hai na , jo humare liye romantic moment ho sakta tha agar unhone meri baat samjhi hoti ya mujhe dhokha nahi diya hota.
Ab jab wo mere pass aate hai ya fir meri fikar karte hai to mujhe yeh sab cheesein chubhti hai. Dard deti hai. Dar lagta hai jab mere paas aate hai lagta hai ab shayad mere upar chai gira denge , ya hath ki chudiya tod denge ya maarenge !!
Unka mere kareeb aana jaa ke ya anjaane mein , yeh sab mujhko taklif deta hai.
Jis shaadi ko mein bachana chahti hun har mukam per jaake kya mein usse apne liye bachana chahti hun ?
Nahi !
Apne liye nahi apne baap ki ek aisi izzat ke liye jiske samane unhone kabhi kisi ko nahi rakha. mein bus ab itna hi jaanti hun ki yeh rishta mein apne uss maike ke liye nibha rahi hun jisne kabhi mujhe apna nahi mana. Sidharth se to mein na chahte hue bhi pyaar kar baithi lekin mein yeh zaroor janti hun ki mein unse alag zaroor ho sakti hun, unke saath reh kar bhi yeh shaadi chala kar bhi mein unse dur ho sakti hun. Mere dil or dimaag dono per ek saath waar kiya hai ab un dono ko hi ek dusre ke saath karna hai mujhe. Sidharth ko kabhi pata nahi chalega ki mein unse kitna pyaar karti hun ya nahi karti hun , saath reh kar bhi hum saath nahi the or na hi ab aage honge kabhi. pyaar bhalaiye kam na ho mera uunke liye lekin mein zaroor unse dur hogai hun.