Dawn of Love (Z.M.)

Chapter 14. Lying.

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Amnesia (5SOS)

Zayn's POV.

For once, I hate being an emotional wreck. I hate being so vulnerable, so easily affected by every little thing that reminds me of them. This shouldn't be happening you know. I'm freaking 25 years old now. A grown up man. And I still cry over my parents like a little kid.

But the fact is, I need them in my life. I need them to be there with me. I wanted them to stay with me through my growing up years, and not be a left in an orphanage.

I hate them for that, absolutely hate them.

"Zayn I'm leaving for work! See you soon mate!", Lou's voice came from the living room, making me jump out of my bed to bid him a goodbye.

"Bye Lou! And wait!", I jogged to him.

Hugging him tight for a few seconds, I pulled away.

"Thank you Lou. Thank you for everything", I smiled at this sunshine.

No matter how many times I say it to him, I could never thank him enough.

"Haha it's all my pleasure your highness.", Lou gave me a slight bow, to which I giggled.

With that, Lou turned to walk out as I gave him a wave.

Closing the door behind me, I walked back inside. And once again, I was engulfed in loneliness and distress, left to be dealt with all by myself.

The first thing that popped into my mind was Katie. Katie, the girl who is doing unusual things to me. Things that I would have never done with anyone else. The girl who is playing with my mind. The girl who refuses to get out of my mind. She is bringing me two completely different things- the first one being the guilt. And the second one being the strange kind of happiness.

Shaking my head, I threw myself onto the couch, and turned on the television. Managing to sway to Uptown Funk, my mind went to my cellphone.

Where is it?

I raked my eyes through the living room. Not here.

I went to the kitchen in case I placed it there. Nope. I then went to the bedroom, being sure it would be there. Shuffling through the blanket, I finally found it.

Unlocking it, I noticed two unread messages in my inbox.

The sinking feeling rose in my stomach when I read Katie's name on the sender.

*Zayn can we talk?*

*Zayn are you there? I know I've hurt you real bad. But can we please talk?Please?*

The messages were from half an hour ago, and so I sighed in relief. I'm not too late to answer her back.

I don't know what to do. I want to see her, and talk to her. But at the same time, I don't want to. I don't know why though.

Hell, I'm a mess.

*What time?* I quickly texted her back.

My breathing was fast and heavy, and I have no idea what was happening to me. Maybe I was just scared? Scared to face her after what I did last night?

*Right now?*, her text message popped up.

*Alright. Place?*, I replied.

*Can I come over?*

I don't know what to feel about this.

God damn! Why is everything seeming so different between the two of us?