Stayin' Alive

Suicidal thoughts

Ever since I found out my mental health got worse. I was eating things I would usually eat and the morning sickness was driving me crazy. It got to the point where I couldn't deal with it. As much as I loved the brothers and adored Maurice I couldn't stay with them much longer. I had to get away and have this baby on my own. I knew I had to escape, Maurice wouldn't let me leave and Robin certainly wouldn't forgive me for breaking his twins heart.

So late on night I called my parents who said yes to letting me live with them as the brothers wouldn't know where that is. Then I packed all my things and left. I stole Maurice's car, I'm sure he wouldn't miss it. As I drove further into the countryside I became more and more free. Leaving them behind was hard but the right thing. I've been there and done that, I'm ready to move on.

With every mile my heart ached more. I knew it would be hard but it would be right. I knew it would help my mental health being out in the country where I belong. When I reached the house my mum was at the door in an instant.

"I'm sorry for having to put you through everything with Jerry. I didn't realise he was like that" my mum apologised helping me unload the car

"It's fine. It's in the past now. We just need to focus on the future" I replied locking the car

We headed inside where my dad took my bags to my old room.

"We were waiting for you to come running home. I knew living with the Gibb brothers wouldn't last forever" my mum said handing me a coffee

"So did I. It was hard to leave but I knew it was the right thing" I agreed sipping my drink

"I hope you realise Barry came here once" my mum said

I froze. What? This can't be happening. When I thought I escaped from that life it turns out I didn't. I put my drink down and headed to my room. I couldn't deal with the thoughts and I just needed sleep.

Maurices POV:

When I turned over Rosalind was gone. I shot awake and looked round. I clambered from bed and ran to Barry's room.

"Mo go back to bed" Barry moaned as I entered

"She's gone, Rosalinds gone" I said

Barry was awake in an instant and running from his room. Robin must have heard us as he came running from his room. Andy did the same as we all began to panic.

"What if Jerry kidnapped her" I said

"What if she ran away" Robin added

I collapsed onto my knees and began crying.

"I can't do anything right. When I finally got someone I love she slips through my fingers" I sobbed

"Mo calm down, we will find her" Robin said dropping down next to me

"She could be at her parents. I know where that is" Barry said

"You go. I'll stay with Mo" Robin said "Andy go with Barry to keep him out of mischief"

The two nodded before heading to the door. Robin just sat hugging me as I cried.

Rosalinds POV:

As I laid in bed I began missing being in Maurices arms. I cuddled up to a pillow as I didn't realise a tear drop down my cheek. I clambered from the bed and headed to the window. I looked out of it at the countryside, now my home. I couldn't believe I ran away. It was so hard but I knew it was for the best. I knew my mental health would be better if I spent some time away from them. I just needed to be alone.

I grabbed my coat and left the house for a walk. I didn't even bother wearing any shoes as I didn't care by this point. As I was walking down the country lanes I noticed a familiar car heading towards me. Barry's. I tried to dive behind a bush but I tripped and fell in the road. Barry jammed the breaks out and the moment the car stopped the passenger door opened. I had hit my head hard on the road so all I could see was butterflies. Someone picked me up, who I then realised was Andy.

"Barry It's Ros, she's about to pass out" Andy informed just as I did pass out