I hate being alone. I hate feeling lonely even more. To some I seem like an introvert and to others I seem like an extrovert but both are not wrong but also not right. I love having me some alone time but I also love being around people. See I'm at this point in my life where it doesn't feel like I have anyone like I'm alone in this huge world. I know I have people cause I have friends who care and family who care but that doesn't stop the fact that I feel alone. Think the reason I feel alone is because I see every one happy and they have people that they love and have families with, but I think another reason I feel alone is that I feel stuck and I'm just watching all my friends grow up and start building lives for themselves and I don't even know where to start. Most of the time the feeling of loneliness doesn't hit until I'm laying in bed about to go to sleep. When it hits I become so aware that I don't have anyone I can truly be myself around without being judged, without feel like I'm annoying or a burden. I don't have anyone that I can do those late night video chats with or someone that would drop everything in a moments notice to comfort me if I needed it. I don't have that. I want that but I don't have that. I don't have anyone who would take a bullet for me but everyone else I know has that and I'm a little bit jealous and envious of them for having that. But loneliness is that feeling of jealousy and envy that I don't have those things that they have.
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A look inside my head
RandomThis is where I share bits and pieces of the things I think about. This can get really opinionated and deep and I don't really write the best, but I try and I hope that what I wright can make someone feel less alone.
