I hate being single in a family where people are in relationships

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I hate being single but not because I'm lonely but because every one in my family is either dating, married or has there own families. So that means that I'm the spare. I'm the one who doesn't have a place. I'm the one that has to give up their seat if theirs not enough room. I don't get the choice of where to go when we choose seats, I'm made to sit wherever there is room. Now you may say I'm just jealous and to that I kinda am nobody likes me like that so how can I not be jealous. You might also say that I'm being selfish and to that my only response is can't I be a little selfish. I mean I do everything for them. So yes I think I deserve to be a little selfish I mean if you were made to do everything and are made to give up your sh*t for every else wouldn't you want to be a little selfish. Now you may ask why don't you refuse or say no well that's because I get told to respect my elders and that I should do it because I'm younger or they tell me I'm ungrateful and that I should be great full for them and move. How can I be great full for cousins who made me hate myself or a mom who is a narcissist and uses me as her scapegoat. So I'm going to be selfish cause I never get to.

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