sucks To Be Me

(5)

I walk to my room and to be honest I'm scared for my life. I am never late and my grades aren't that good lately so another reason to be mad at me. I'm not doing good these days. Normally I would get a beating like once a week. I don't say it is normal, it kinda is for me though.

I sit on my bed an wait until my dad is coming upstairs, I already put my bag away and put on a black shirt i don't care about. After exactly 15 minutes my door opens and my dad is in front of it. I look at his face and then down to his hand, he is holding a big brown leather belt. Fuck I'm so fucked up. He sit next to me and looks at my face.

"You are being a real shit lately, you really can't do anything good do you. First you get bad grades then you need to go to a friend's house for a project and you are home to late, what is going on with you. We work for your food, a room and Education and you pay us back with the shitty child you are. You know what you don't get to eat tomorrow and no friends even for a stupid school project you can meet online. You are going to do all the chores for a whole week and you are gonna take this punishment like the man I Raised you as"

I look up at my dad and take in everything he told me. Am I really that bad of a son. Maybe I deserve to be bullied and abused at home. I nod my head at my dad and for the next 30 minutes the only thing you hear in the house are my screams cries and the belt hitting my back.

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The next morning I put on a big black hoodie and walk downstairs with my bag half on my back because of the pain I directly walk past the kitchen and just when I take a quick look into the kitchen I see nicely cut Fruit pancakes and toast and stuff like that. I look at my mom and she has a smirk on her face "don't you want to eat something before you go to school, oh yeah I forgot you are not allowed to eat today mmhh sad for you I made this amazing breakfast you know I had time today and we had the Ingredients so I thought why not a nice family breakfast but I forgot you are a worthless child that need punishments like this" I look up at her with a discussed face, nor that I want to eat but it's just the reason why I can't eat it now is making me angry.

"I need to go mom, have a nice day at work" I walks out of the house and to the school. When I enter I see Julian max Maddy and Olivia standing at my locker, I god. "Hi" I say to them. "Hi yesterday was a lot of fun can you go after school again" I look at Maddy who asked the question. "No sorry my parents didn't like that I was late yesterday I'm not allowed to, sorry". I give as answer it's the truth, it's the part of the truth that they have to know. "Oh it's okey maybe a other time". "Yeah sure" I say.

I follow my lessons like the good person I am and even go to gym class.
In the locker room I normally turn my back to everyone but that's not a option today so facing them it is. Gym was ofcourse Terrible and I got like 8 times a ball in my back and it hurt like shit. I see Julian looking at me every time a ball hits me and it worries me why is he looking like that's. After I survived teh day I walk home, do my homework and all the chores that needed to be done in the house after that I go to bad at like 2 am without any food the whole day, if I didn't loos anything I'm going to cry.

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I think it's a pretty good update, around the 700 words kinda proud of myself..😂