하루토 • to my star

13

7th August 2020

Today was our debut and I was nervous as hell.

I didn't know what they did with my introduction video or my cover but I hoped the fans would like it.

Some of the boys were sitting down and others were still getting their mics fitted but when they were all sat down and the staff started to countdown for the live I gave them a big thumbs up and smiled.

The live took an hour and they did games like charades and fan questions and I was there for support when any of them nervously looked at me.

The staff signalled for the five-minute end and that's when the pang of anxiety hit me like a truck and I realised this was one of the biggest moments of my life and this decided my career.

"Bye Teume, make sure to watch us on Inkigayo and support our newest member." Jihoon said as they all waved towards the camera and just like that the live ended and my video was playing.

All the members gathered around the screen to watch it.

...

"Hi teume, I'm Yukki Nao and 15 years old from Saga Japan." I stood in one of the practice rooms and I remember the exact moment it was filmed. "Was that good." I asked our manager. Wow embarrassing, why'd they keep that in?

"How do you feel about the members?" The question was asked and I gave the same speech I gave the members the day before.

It was a voice over merged to videos that had been taken of me and them, some of them I didn't even know were filmed.

"Well... at the start, I acted strong and confident especially as a member of the group, but I didn't actually think of myself as a Treasure member." It was a clip of me when I jumped into the hotel pool and talked about how cold it was.

"I felt like I made things awkward and caused doubt. I even wondered why am I here? In a boy group with twelve very loud guys and be the only girl." It showed another clip of when we all watched a movie together for the first time and were piled on top of each other.

"I thought maybe if I left it would benefit the group, even though we haven't even debuted. But I started to grow attached to them, they felt like the brothers I never had and I watched as they all slowly excepted me." Another clip of Doyoung and me celebrating and Jihoon and Yoshi looking salty from when we played basketball.

I looked directly into the camera lens.

"So Hyunsuk and Jihoon the leaders and parents who made sure I was okay and looked after me, a clip of us when we went out for ice cream played when Hyunsuk dropped his and I let him share mine.

Jaehyuk and Jeongwoo who always brighten the mood, there was a clip of me and Jaehyuk on his birthday with cake stained faces and another with my playing a game with Jeongwoo.

Doyoung and Asahi who help me grow with my dancing and composition, a clip was shown of me and Doyoung dancing together and one where Asahi was putting in my contacts.

Yoshi who always cares for me, it showed me tying his hair and putting on his face mask.

I was wondering if the members were in on this because some of the clips must have been filmed by them.

Mashiho who makes me feel like I can laugh freely, another clip of Mashiho and me trying to arm wrestle.

Junkyu who takes special naps with me, a clip of me and him sleeping together in the dorm came up.

Haruto who sat by me when I cried, ironically a clip of me getting annoyed at him for taking too long in the bathroom was shown.

Yedam my best friend who is there for me, the clip of me giving him his fox plushie.

And Junghwan my little baby who cheers me on." It showed me eating the ketchup noodles he made. "It's good Junghwan-a." I now know why Jeongwoo judged me I looked like a hot mess.

"Thank you for being the family I hoped for."

It ended with the first team dinner and all of us laughing.

"I hope you guys welcome me, and I hope you didn't sob like Hyunsuk when I told him this." I laughed.

It panned off to my song of stay by Blackpink, mixes of when I sang in the studio and when I performed on a stool with a mic. 

"Nao!" Hyunsuk sniffed again and wrapped his arms around me. The rest of the members joining in a group hug that might have lasted just a tad too long but I didn't mind.

...

"Nao, wake up."

"Why." I groaned as I turned over towards my wall.

"You're in a dating scandal."

"I'm in a what!"