"If I could do it all over, maybe I'd do it different, maybe I wouldn't be here, in this position, I found you then I lost you, looking back is torture, and it hurts to know I let you go."
Tonight we're having a party at the sway house and I'm honestly so happy that I'll have a distraction tonight. Maybe Alayíah will stay in the same room as me for once.
I've been talking to the guys and really been trying to process my feelings and its been pretty tough, but I've finally realized I still have big feelings for Alayíah still, maybe thats why Nessa and I argued so much I still like Alayíah and I need to face it.
Alayíah's pov :
the boys are all setting up for the party tonight, Jaden convinced me to go and not stay in my room the whole time so I'm in my room getting ready.
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at the party*
The party has only been started for about 40mins and the house is already packed full of people, I really didn't think that they would invite this many people but I'm not complaining about it. The more people the less likely it is for me to be around Josh.
"Alayíah we're taking shots" Bryce says, then I hold on to his arm and he takes me over to where the guys were, and of course Josh is here.
We took probably 10-12 shots of tequila as a group then me and Bryce ended up drinking the rest of the bottle.
I was already drunk off my ass and the party has barely even started yet.
I lost every one of the guys so I'm trying to find someone I know, then I see Ryland Storms and Nick Austin walking in.
"Ryyyylanddd" I say walking over to him, "Whats up Layíah" he says hugging me. Then I hung out with Ryland and Nick for awhile until I lost them to.
I decided to stop looking for people and just go outside where there were alot less people. I go to walk over to the chairs next to the pool and bump into someone.
"I'm so sorry" I say as they help me up, as soon as they caught me from falling I knew who it was, Josh, I know his touch anywhere. "I think we need to get you upstairs" he says with his arms still around me, "No I'm fine" I say pushing away from him. "Come on Layíah let's just go chill for a little bit" he says trying to grab my arm, "No Josh" I say stepping back, "Fine but if you need something come get me or someone that you know" he says then I walk away.
later that night*
Its been a few hours now and I can't find anyone that I know here its so packed full of people.
I come out of the bathroom and see almost everyone in a big circle crowded around some people. I push my way through everyone and see Bryce and Josh beating the shit out of these two other guys.
After I stand there and watch them fight for a second I run in between Josh and this other guy causing them to stop. "Josh lets go" I say putting my hands on his chest, "No why" he says looking into my eyes, "Because I said let's fucking go" I say pushing him a little, "Yea listen to your little bitch" the guy says and you could see Josh's face immediately change back into anger. Then I turn around to face this guy and punch him right in the jaw, "Okay let's go" Josh says wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me a little.
After Bryce finally stopped fighting we all decided to go take more shots.
After we finish another whole bottle i instantly felt like I was going to puke, I run outside and start puking my guts out.
Now I have throw up all over my dress, I take off my dress then jump into the pool, what was I thinking now I have to go all the way upstairs to get new clothes.
As I'm getting out of the pool Jaden comes outside and helps me get out, "You want me to take you upstairs" he asks, I nod my head then we run into the house and up to my room. I put on new clothes then walk back out and see Josh waiting for me.
"Hey Jaden told me to make sure you were okay" he says, "Thanks" I say then stumble onto him, "Are you sure you want to go back down there" Josh asks helping me stand up since I could barely walk, "Yea I need another drink" I say laughing.
later*
I've been with Josh most of the night since his fight and its actually been pretty nice just being with him.
"I'll be back I'm gonna go to the bathroom" Josh says getting up and walking away, almost as soon as Josh walks away 3 guys come over and sit around me.
"Hey wassup whichu" the one guy says to me, "Uh hi" I say then another one of them puts his hand on my thigh so I try to push it off but he just tightens his grip, "How about you come with us" the guy says, and I shake my head 'no' but they don't stop. Then I see Josh walking back towards us, he could tell be the look on my face that I was very uncomfortable, Josh tries to grab my arm and one of the guy push him back away from me, "Who are you" the guy says, "Her boyfriend, who are you" Josh says then Jaden, Bryce, Anthony, and Tayler walk over to us.
"Are you okay" Tayler asks me and I shake my head no, "Do we have a problem here" Bryce says stepping in between Josh and the one guy, "I dont know do we" He says looking at Josh, "Clearly there's a problem" Josh says pointing at me and the other two guys on the couch next to me.
Then the guy lets go of my leg and Anthony gets me off of the couch, after I get up The boys. start arguing with eachother. "Alayíah go with Anth to find Griff and Kio" Josh says so me and Anthony go find them then we all go back to where the boys were and they're all fighting.
One of them is practically wrestling with Bryce and Tayler another one has Jaden in a head lock and the other has Josh on the ground, "SOMEONE DO SOMETHING" I yell at Griffin, Anthony, and Kio, then Griff pushes the guy off of Josh and Anthony somehow got Jaden out of that head lock.
They eventually all stop fighting and the guys leave then Josh wraps his arms around me, "Are you okay now" he says and I nod my head yes.
"All of you in my room now" I say then we all go upstairs to my room.
I get everyone cleaned up that needs to be and then we all fell asleep in my room.
