"If I could do it all over, maybe I'd do it different, maybe I wouldn't be here, in this position, I found you then I lost you, looking back is torture, and it hurts to know I let you go."
Josh and I are all alone at my dads house again, the kids are at school and my dad is at work of course so like always its just me and Josh.
Josh is on a business call with his manager and Griffin i have no idea what its about but he said it might take awhile. Im just sitting in the dinning room when i get a facetime from Jaden.
A:alayíah J:jaden
A: "Hey" J: "Are you busy" A: "Not at all... why is there something wrong" J: "Did you see tiktok room this morning" A: "Uh no" J: "Well i think you should go look" A: "Okay" i say then i open up instagram, go to tiktok room and this is what i see...
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A: "what. the. fuck." J: "do you think it's real" A: " Jaden she has a belly it has to be real...wait that means it has to be Joshs baby" i say as my eyes begin to fill with tears J: " Thats what i thought too... thats why i had to tell you" A: " D-do i say something to him like what am i supposed to do" i say crying J: "He might not even know yet Lay" A: "Well im gonna go ask him I'll call you back" J: "Ok love you" A: "Love you too"
end of conversation*
"Did you know" I say walking into my room where Josh is, " hold on" he says into the phone, "Did i know what" he says and i throw my phone with the post onto the bed next to him, "I'll call you guys back" he says hanging up the phone, "Alayíah i swear i didnt know, if i did i wouldve told you, Lay i love you more then anything i dont care if she's pregnant that has nothing to do with you and me-" he says then i cut him off, " it does have something to do with us when its your kid" i say crying and his face drops, "she said it was mine" he questions, "she didnt have to say it Josh do the math you guys were together when she got pregnant" i say and he just looks at me, " i guess its a good thing we fly home in the morning and we dont have to see eachother after this" i say then walk out of the room leaving my phone and then i go outside and just start walking.
at sway*
Jaden and Bryce picked us up from the airport Josh keeps trying to say sorry and talk to me but i just keep ignoring him. Theres no way that theyre not going to get back together when she's having his baby, i know Josh he cares way to much to not make that work at least for the kid.
We get into the house and i go straight up to my room with Jaden since he's helping me carry my stuff.
"So do you wanna talk about it" Jaden says closing my door, "No" i say then turn off all the lights, close the curtains and lay down in my bed.
later* i ended up falling asleep and as soon as i wake up i hear screaming right outside of my door.
"SHUT THE FUCK UP" i yell but they just keep going i listen for a second and i realize that its Nessa and Josh arguing.
"Is it my fucking kid or not Nessa" i hear Josh say, "Who elses would it be" she yells back, "Fine i was a DNA test done then" he says, "No" she says back, " Why not, if its really my kid then it shouldn't be a problem right" he says, "Your not serious are you" she says, then theres a pause "Fine we can go tomorrow" she says then i hear someone walk down the stairs.
I give it a minute then i decide to go to Bryces room.
"Well hello" Bryce says as i open his door, "shhh" i say then i go lay down in his bed and fall asleep.
A fee hours later i wake up and Bryce is asleep next to me while Jaden and Anthony are in the gaming chairs playing fortnite.
"Jaden" i say as i sit up and he looks over at me, "Can we go get food" i say then he puts down his controller, reaches for my hand and we go get in his car.
"Mcdonald's" he asks and i nod my head then we drive off.
