Kissing Booth (college edition)

Chapter 19

It's been a few weeks since Noah has woken up. He moved back with his parents so they would be able to take care of him. Unfortunately he can't walk much he is still very weak but just him being alive his a miracle. I haven't been able to talk to him alone yet because of how crazy getting him back home was. Liam, the kids and I are stay at  my parents house for now but we have to go back home soon.

*Knock Knock

I hit my fist gently against the wooden door. Noah's bedroom hasn't changed at all since we all left for college. Old memories swarmed my mind. The days I used to run based his room but stop just to see him lying in his bed. The days I used to daydream about how hot he was and wished he was mine and reality would hit.

"Come in." Noah sat up in his bed. He clearly had just woken up.

"Hey, is it okay if we talk?" He nodded and I sat on the edge of his bed. 

"El. What am I going to do. My life was nothing but full of happiness with you. I need you, I want you. I messed up. I shouldnt have let you walk alone by yourself that night. I shouldnt have done anything but kept you by my side. And now I lost you. And I cant even be mad at you." A single tear rolled down his cheek. 

"Noah, I'm so sorry. I love you so much and it was so hard for years just trying to think about moving on. I couldn't, I didn't want too. But as the years went on I didn't know what to do. I felt that you were never going to wake up. And when I found out I was pregnant I felt lost. I came and talked to you almost everyday." My heart was BREAKING.

"I know you did." Noah looked me in the eyes.

"What?" 

"I heard every word. I listened to everything. I knew it was you every time. Your soft voice and the sweet touch of you hand. You would yell at me to wake up. You would cry into my shoulder and just lie there speechless. Sometimes you would walk in and not even talk. We would just sit in the silence. I heard it all El. And everytime I wanted to tell you I was okay. That I was going to open my eyes and see you smile. The thought of just hugging you or holding your hand made me feel so warm. But I couldn't move. There was a resistant that was holding me back."

My heart nearly stopped. He heard it ALL. "So, you knew I was pregnant?"

"Yes." He smiled. "I wanted to jump out of that bed. I wanted to scream that I was going to be a father. El, I would have done anything to be with you in that moment. I knew you were in pain from the sound of your voice."

Tears were streaming out of my eyes. I was at a loss of words.

"I knew you were going to marry Liam." Noah had a droopy look on his face.

"How?" 

"When he would visit he would talk about you. He would always say its wrong of him, but there's this feeling that he couldn't hold back. Before he proposed he came to me asking if it was okay. I said no. But he doesn't have to know that. He made a promise to me that if I was to ever wake up he would back off."

I was in shock. Liam truly cared and respected Noah and I's relationship. But I don't want him to back off. I don't want things to change. 

"Oh Noah." I hugged him and felt his heartbeat. "I don't know what to do."

He looked at me and took a deep breath. "Do what makes you happy. That's all that matters."

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What will El decide ??

Her past or current relationship??

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