Pretty Boy | Taekook

Chapter 4

It's now 2am and Jungkook is struggling to get to sleep. He has so many thoughts running through his head after what happened. After he came, he had to sit still for about 5 minutes just trying to calm himself down, before eventually cleaning the cum off his hand and changing into a new pair of pyjama bottoms.

This whole experience has him questioning his sexuality more than ever before. Does this mean I'm gay? Am I never going to like girls? Maybe I could like girls? Well only if they... you know... somehow... had a dick? This is all very overwhelming for him.

You see Jungkook isn't against being gay. If any of his friends were to come out he'd be incredibly supportive and wouldn't see them any differently than before they came out. This isn't an issue. It more so just feels very sudden and hard to wrap his head around.

He's wondering why the idea of being gay has never crossed his mind before this incident. It does make sense considering he's never crushed on girls, and all the experiences he's had with girls hadn't really peaked his interest or made him want to go any further. But he's also never crushed on boys either...

The thing is, Jungkook has never met anyone gay before. He's never been exposed to it really. He knew it was a thing, but it had never come up in his daily life before, certainly not enough for him to really consider it in himself. Because its still such a taboo in South Korea, he hasn't really been exposed to it in his regular TV watching or through Korean pop culture. The most he's seen is the occasional re-run of a random American sitcom with a gay best friend character, but never an actual gay relationship. He certainly had no idea before today that anal sex was a thing. He certainly had no clue it was such a turn on for him, enough to ignite his sexuality.

At this point he just feels tired with the endless string of thoughts running through his head and really wants to go to sleep so he doesn't look too rough tomorrow at school. He decides he doesn't fully know his sexuality further than liking the idea of something up his ass. At least now he has something to think about when he finds himself having to deal with another random boner. He also wonders how he can find his own jock to pound him into submission... oh wait... that's very gay... well he can overanalyse that another time.

Unfortunately, the lack of sleep really did a number on his face, and he walks into school the next day with prominent dark circles under his eyes. He hopes no one notices or questions him, because he's really not in the right head space to come up with a believable excuse as to why he's so tired.

Walking through the corridors he finds it hard greeting everyone with his usual sunny disposition. The most he is capable of is a forced smile and a quiet "hey" to all the people shouting his name as he walks by. When he finally makes it to his homeroom, he collapses into his chair and hides his face in his desk. He's struggling to look people in the eye, worried they can see right through into his not so PG thoughts. He hopes he can make it through the day without being asked any questions. He definitely can't see himself making it through another lunchtime sex chat now he actually knows his own sexual preferences, which aren't at all like what his friends enjoy. He'll have to find Lisa and beg her to spend lunch with him instead. He pulls out his phone to text her when he feels someone ruffling his hair.

He groans, trying to give the person a signal that he doesn't want to be disturbed, but it just brings about a snicker from the person followed by repeated poking to the side of his head.

Feeling even more frustrated, he lifts his head enough to glare at the person disturbing his peace and catches sight of Taehyung with a smirk on his face.