BUTTERFLY EFFECT ( youth with you 3 oneshots )

Neil - Forgiving

Forgiving

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i opened my eyes as they encountered the cotton candy skies who honestly were mostly blue while the sun shone through the clouds , it looked like heaven on earth .

i looked to my left seeing my boyfriend, Neil . Man was he a sweetheart, he deserved way more for putting up with me yet i still cant figure out why he stays not that i want him to leave or anything .

he was a bit far from me , we must've fought again , but what do i know i was black out drunk i still cant seem to let go of the adrenaline and fun

i layed on my stomach arms crossed and my face leaning on them staring at the angel before me

"good mooring" he said while turning to me " isn't ti a bit early for you" he said caressing my cheek

how could he always be so calm ?

"aren't you mad?" i asked , frowning my eyebrows "you never seem to lose your temper"

he chuckled a bit before saying "oh i do get mad a lot , but when it comes to you i see only the good , selected memories"

i wish i , ugh i wish i didn't have to be so licentius

i smiled at him sadly before saying " how about we spend the day together ?"
"i'd love that" he said smiling widely , i feel bad for him , it crouched my heart seeing him get happy over things that should be normal between couples and most importantly why did i have to pity him , that just felt wrong

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" its raining" he told me sadly while i was busy getting ready , i stopped for a minute making my way to him , back hugging "well thats ok , we can have a drive and come back to enjoy the comfort of our home"

home , oh how i wish i had treated this penthouse apartment block like home .

he turned around giving me kiss on my lips before going down on my neck while my eyes filled with liquid soon spilling down my cheeks.

i dont know why i was crying, it was surely not because i didn't want him near me

" do you hate me that much?" He asked while hugging me
"you know i dont hate you" i responded
"but do you love me"

i went silent for a moment, thinking
do i ?

"forget it" he said letting go and soon i heard the door open & close harshly

well that was rude

anyways ,
but i do

i ran after him to the parking lot but it was to late he was driving off

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FOLLOW YOU FOR FUCKS SAKE

i yelled after him , it was too rainy and i couldn't go so i decided to wait in

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i called & called & called but he never picked up , so that's how he was feeling all this time , when i went out late getting drunk smoking cigarettes yet he was always so calm , i dont think its supposed to be like that

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minutes turned into hours and the morning soon yet there was no sign of the rain stopping or Neil .

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Neil P.O.V
i opened the door seeing her laying down on the couch her phone close , how is it that when it comes to her i never see something bad i always forgive and forget , i really do have more than a soft spot for her

i kneeled down to her face grabbing a few strands before whispering
"is it to much to ask to just feel wanted"
i looked at her sadly still debating rather she was going to say she loves me or not . Last night.

"i love you" i hear her whisper and i soon look at her , eyes read and swallowed, oh dear lord was i the reason

she extended her hand grabbing into my shirt pulling me , i took that as a sign to climb next to her

i embraced her in my arms as she continued shedding tears

" hey" i said grabbing her chin " im not mad"

Your P.O.V
is it possible to have such angel on earth
, he held me near looking down at me before pulling me into the sweetest kiss
" i love you"

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this was a special request i know its kind of sad so lmk if you want another one that more of a fluff anyways home u like it <33
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