What's happening to me?? (COMPLETED)

𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠

𝚁𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚙

I need you right now come over 37421 peachtree

I'm on my way

Beyonce's P.O.V.

Everything was weighing in on her mind heavy. So she decided to sit outside on the porch like she used to do at night when she needed to clear her mind but she needed to talk to onika so she can feel better she was so tired of hurting and being in pain. The doorbell rung throughout beyonce's house. She opened the door to see Nicki with a tear stained face. I embraced her in a hug immediately without even thinking I don't like seeing her sad. they hug for a long time before bey lead them out to the balcony where she was sitting and looking at the stars. They sat on a bench with covers. Then beyonce took a deep breath.

"I'm tired of this hurting onika we need to talk." -Bey

"I know and I want to start and be 100% honest with you and tell you everything from the beginning.
all I'm asking of you is to listen fully. Okay?" -Nicki

Bey nods her head and nicki took a deep breath.

"From the beginning I thought you were beautiful of course and instantly I was jealous of you and drake's interaction and I didnt even know why because I never thought I could have feelings for a girl and I let my jealousy take over. well that night well morning you woke up at 3 in the morning panicking and freaking out I'm assuming from the weed because it was your first time and you umm." -Nicki

She says looking down in her lap

"What?" - beyonce says now with tears running down her face.

"Revealed to me that shawn was abusing you and you were self harming and after seeing you so vulnerable I instantly wanted to give you the world, you tugged at my heart strings. I cuddled with you and we fell asleep and I felt emotionally connected to you, but when you woke up and couldnt remember it it made me feel honestly I still dont know a feeling I cant describe. Then we made a hit and it was so fun and great then when you were sad about shawn and we talked about our misunderstanding and differences and we fell asleep together it was amazing and how we teased each other when we woke up it was a good day and when we hugged before you left I felt this spark and like butterflies and I realized I had feelings for you. " -Nicki said she glanced at bey before starting again.

"Then the next day i texted you and checked up on you and you didnt respond then later I seen you were out with drake it hurt me. I thought that our friendship didnt mean anything to you and you chose him over me. I also held resentment towards him and I remember thinking he's my brother how could he do that to me evern though he didn't know. Then seeing you with him broke something inside of me and that made so sad and since I was hurt I decided to push you away because I didnt want you to break my heart and hurt me more and I didnt want you to have my heart. My previous relationship was abusive also and I never really spoke on it. I just refer to it as the situation because it hurts sm yk I just didnt want to be hurt but I never thought about how you felt or if I was breaking your heart or hurting you. I hated myself for it because you told me you had no one and were alone and I basically said we only had a business relationship and I left you alone and i couldnt stand looking at myself." - nicki said sobbing

"Hey it's okay you know it's not your fault what happend to you in your last relationship. Your not weak your really strong and you talking about it is a step to healing. your pain and feelings are valid" -Bey