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Chapter 17

WARNING ⚠️ unconsenting mature content.

Looking down at the picture in my hand i feel the betrayal get bigger and bigger. What if my mother was right and he was after me because i was young. He's been stalking me long before i knew him. And this is only as far as the photos go back who knows he could've been doing it longer, he did say he loved me back when i said it to him on the street. God what if he somehow planned that?

I hate this feeling. Questioning the man i love. Do i love him? Fuck does he love me or am i just to satisfy some sick fetish he has with high school girls? Then he'll get tired of me when i'm not young anymore! God what the fuck happened.

I wish i never picked up this stupid book. I wish i never asked to sit at his table at the coffee shop. I wish Riley asked me to tell someone else i loved them. Anything so then i wouldn't fall into his trap.

Oh god and what about Floyd.

He just got his daddy and now i'm going to take him away? He'll hate me. And Maverick. God who knows what Maverick would do if he even suspected i was thinking of leaving him. But what am i supposed to do. Stay with my stalker?

"Mama!" I hear a sweet voice call from the doorway, I drop the pictures and i feel my baby latch on to my legs. "Up!" He reaches up at me but i get down quickly to try and grab the photos i dropped.

"Floyd did you find Mama?" I hear Maverick call out and my heart starts beating out of my chest as i shove the pictures back into the book, but i'm too late because when he walks in the door i'm only just getting the last photo in the book, still on the ground with it open in my hands.

"Paisley you were not supposed to see that." He says after a moment of silence.

"Why? They're pictures of me." I say taking a deep breath trying to play it cool, I pick up Floyd and sit down on the bed with him in my lap and i open the book.

"Look Floyd these are pictures of mama!" I say forcing my voice to be excited. 

"These are from before i knew your daddy." I tell him still faking a happy voice, Floyd won't understand this is wrong yet. "I don't know how he got them." I say my voice cracking at the end. But i just clear my throat and keep going.

"Paisley." Maverick says but i ignore him.

"This picture is from almost 2 whole years before i met your daddy." I tell him.  I look up at Maverick and he just has a grimace on his face and is staring at the floor in front of me but i know he is listening to every word i say.

"Look at this one, this is in my room. The one we're staying in right now. Only difference is this is way before i even knew you were going to exist." I kiss good cheek, even if his father is a twisted mother fucker he is my son more. "You're sleeping in that one mama." Floyd points out.

I can't help the tears that well up in my eyes at his innocent observation of something so sinister.

"Yeah i guess daddy would watch me sleep before i met him." I say finally a tear falls and immediately Maverick steps forward and drops to his knees in front of me, resting his head on Floyd's lap and he grabs the back of my calves holding me.

"Baby." He whispers. Floyd puts his hand in his daddy's hair. "Please don't leave me." his hands move to the bottom of my thighs.

"I-It looks bad i know, it looks really bad! Way worse than it is i promise!" His eyes snap up to mine and i can see the desperation in them. "The first time i met you was uh that day with your friend you... You told me you loved me. I didn't even mean to but my hand just shot to my pocket to grab my phone and snap a picture. I-I just wanted to remember the moment." His eyes search mine for reassurance and when he finds none he looks to Floyd instead. "I saw you the next week walking to that park. That was the first time i ever... followed you." He takes a deep breath. "I didn't even realize what i was doing i just did a U-turn and quietly followed behind another car going to the park, I saw you sit under the willow tree, you looked like a fairy in your green dress." I remember the photos from these days.